my life...my journey...and my thoughts...

the dried leaf...

2007-04-08T15:37:00.000+10:00

if the wind blows to the south,
i will fly with the birds,
if the water is heading to the sea,
i will swim with the fish,

but for now,
i have found the direction that i want to go,
let me go,
and we will see again some other time...

its about changing the path, learning from another dimension...

2007-01-04T03:23:00.000+11:00

i've been thinking about it for the last 4 to 5 weeks whether to proceed or just settle in here...im comfortable here and i have nothing to complain about the atmosphere. but i guess, after 3 years of blogging, ive made up my mind to change my dimension. nothing big, just want to try out something new and see how far could i go with the next one. thanks to anyone who drop by and leave something for me to remember. after all, now im experiencing the same old phenomena and im not surprised, though. all i can say here is, im happy with my decision and it is definite. where i will end up after this will be my personal quest through my learning curve. after all, i can say i've enjoyed every single moment that i spent here with the others and with few other loyal friends. you guys are great and i admire some of you. lets keep up sharing the thoughts and i guessed thats why TIME magazine picked us up as the person of the year in their recent publication. anyway enough is enough, lets "talk the talk" and "walk the walk". i hope to see you guys in another dimension and we'll the talk from there. adios crampes from the fattie elephantie......

the second day of syawal...

2006-10-24T09:18:00.000+11:00

well, the first Syawal was not to bad. it went smooth without me having to control my feeling although there's a point where i realized that this is my third year celebrating Eid far from my family. no point of hiding the feeling when everyone's share the same atmosphere and emotion.

after morning prayer, almost all of us went for a convoy to Uncle Danni's place. as usual, getting lost is common for people who never been to his place. it's not our fault by the way, the road sign to his place disappear thus we could no locate the road. after all its a worth journey to West Moonah. we were served with bryani rice, 'nasi himpit' (sounds funny a lil' bit when you type it), masak lodeh, ayam masak merah, tahu goreng cili and the thing that you will never miss even though you are in Hobart, jem tart (man, this is classic, pure classic when you can see everyone aim at the same thing). after all, we had a good laugh and chat with Uncle Danni and his wife. i wish i could provide photo here, but to lazy to get it from my friend.

after uncle danni's place, all of us, totaling of 6 cars with roughly 5 peoples in it, we head to Maksu's place. well, as raya is all about food, the same thing goes with this visit. serving us with rice, popedum, chicken curry and plenty of dessert, none of us could actually stand up and walk from the lounge area to the kitchen. to me, after three years of celebrating raya with not so many people in the previous year i would officially declare that this is one of the best i ever had. although the number is not so big, we share the excitement and experience. thanks people for the effort and to all the people who actually celebrating their last raya in hobart this year, you guys are the best. may Allah, with His will, one day grant us the opportunity to celebrate raya together again.

surprisingly in Australia, only Sydney, Tasmania and probably all over Victoria celebrate their Eidulfitri yesterday. for Queensland and Western Australia, they celebrate their Eid today. not to sure about Northern Territory and ACT but im sure if its not yesterday, it should be today.

well, to my family and relatives back home, Eid Mubarak and may this year Ramadhan is one the best for all of us. forgive me for all the mistakes and all the bad deeds that i've done previously and hopefully in future as well. i'm just a normal human being lacking in many things. to all my friends, brothers and sisters, regardless of your background and belief, either from the real world or from the virtual world, Eid Mubarak and forgive me for all my bad deeds as well. im just a friend with many duties, and on top of that with bad memories, i hope you guys could forgive me. thanks guys.

today is the second day of ramadhan and im back on my computer, trying to finish my essay. i have exactly 10 minutes before i can call my mom, brother and sister to wish them Eid Mubarak and say what i want to say. alrighty guys, have a good Eid Mubarak and have a good day. salam to all of you from me in Hobart, Tasmania.

antara kuasa, kesetiaan dan keadilan...

2006-10-18T07:17:00.000+11:00

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
darjat menjadi ukuran,
kepatuhan menjadi pegangan,
darah menjadi percaturan...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
antara bertiga,
dua berkawan, satu menjadi tuan,
satu mati bertahan, dua hidup tak keruan...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
bicara menjadi debat,
pegangan menjadi hujah,
akhirnya satu nyawa musnah...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
satu berhati daulat,
satu berhati setia,
satu berkorban nyawa...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
mereka sama,
warna, bangsa dan agama,
kenapa bersengketa....

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
yang berkuasa mahu dipuaskan,
yang berkemahuan rela berkorban,
yang percaya pada keadilan hilang kawan...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
yang dipatuhi tidak boleh disangkal,
yang setia rela mengalah,
yang adil tidak mahu berserah...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
berkuasa tidak menjamin kesetiaan,
kesetian tidak menjamin isi habuan,
keadilan tidak bermaksud hati diturutkan...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
untuk yang mendengar, melihat dan mentafsir,
bukan sekadar sejarah hiasan,
tapi buat bekalan santapan warisan...

sultan, tuah dan jebat,
sebuah hikayat,
atau satu peringatan,
atau hanya seloka buatan...

a person...

2006-10-14T11:54:00.000+11:00

i had chat with a friend the other day. probably after long hour of reading and struggling to finish my major essay, it caused me to asked such weird question to my friend and created a confusion. alrighty, this the question that i asked my friend and now i would like to put up here, the same question and see if anyone interested to get them self involve in such confusion:

"If i want to be a person, what sort of person i want to be?" and "If you want know me as a person, what sort of person you want to know?"

Probably to some people, it is not a significant issue to be acquainted with. However to me, this is the first step that i as a person or probably all of us, need to overcome before we look up to the next thing which is, "How to be that person?". Normally (pardon me if im wrong), we set ourself to be a person in relation to what others want us to be look like or to behave. The way we talk, we dress, we eat and even the way we walk or stand. Is it wrong?, NO. Is it right?, the same answer, NO. The right or wrong can only be answered by the person itself who let other to judge or set them. We, as the audience only know how to appreciate what suit us on others capabilities to follow. We sometimes ignore the needs that the person requires. Although we realise this, we never do anything but on top of that, we keep on criticize others and expressed our disliking.

Are we responsible to any critics that we made on others? YES, we do. We as the criticizer, normaly disregard this and always behave cowardly towards our own critics. Are there any difference between critics and opinions? YES. Interestingly, this is what Microsoft® Encarta® Reference Library 2004 provides as the meaning for critic and opinion;

crit·ic
crit·ic [kríttik](plural crit·ics)

n

1. somebody judging something: somebody who makes a judgment about or
an appraisal of something or somebody and gives comments
2. writer of reviews: somebody, especially a journalist, who writes or broadcasts opinions on the quality of things such as drama productions, art exhibitions, and literary works
3. somebody who finds fault: somebody who does not like something or somebody, or who finds fault with something or somebody

[Mid-16th century. Via Latin from Greek kritikos “discerning,” from kritēs “judge,” from krinein (see crisis).]

o·pin·ion
o·pin·ion [ə pínnyən](plural o·pin·ions)
n
1. personal view: the view somebody takes about a certain issue, especially when it is based solely on personal judgment.
2. estimation: a view regarding the worth of somebody or something.
3. expert view: an expert assessment of something
4. body of generally held views: general assessment, judgment, or evaluation.
5. [law] conclusion of fact: a conclusion drawn from observation of the facts
[14th century. Via French from the Latin stem opinion- from opinari “to suppose.”]

be a matter of opinion to be open to dispute or debate
be of the opinion that to think that something is the case

therefore, the question that we need to ask ourself now is (although this is not a sequence to the previous question but it's related to the topic), "Are we ready to behave appropriately to any critics that we give out?". If we are not ready to be responsible for any critics that we gave on others and sometimes in order not to be seen as an enemy, we paraphrased it to, "it is not a critic; it is rather just a plain and honest opinion". Mate, may i suggest to you to think critically, twice or more before you spit it out and create confusions.

there is nothing wrong to critics or to give out your opinions. we can and definitely no one can stop us from doing so. but people, think before you say. the impact of what we say on others will actually reflect our personality. well i guess, the reason why i share my thought on this particular issue is because, after going through some experience in the past and unintentionally i witnessed other peoples experience, it moves me to summed up what i think and share it.

anyway, what i think and what i belief is open for anyone to critic or to add their own opinion. it's just that, we need to know what we want to say and understand it before someone critic us back.

p/s: ramadhan al-mubarak, antara sedar sudah hampir ke penghujung...antara sedar, banyak mana amalan telah aku lakukan dan banyak mana telah aku pelajari dari pengalaman kali ini...

the more the merrier...come and integrate...

2006-10-09T23:48:00.000+11:00

p/s: this will be an opportunity for everyone to see the real "physical" outlook of "everyone"....hmmm, i wonder how everyone will "look" like and i wonder what "language" they speak....

news from hobart...

2006-10-02T17:03:00.000+11:00

its been a while i didt put any post here. lately too busy with commitments, life and school. too many things to read and to many stuff need to be done. while life is fully occupied with this and that especially uni assignments, i still have time to relax and play Hexic online, went for driving and on top of that, work. this is crazy and this mad but as time move from one frame to another, the same thing apply to me.

it ramadhan again and without my realisation, this is the 3rd year of me celebrating Ramadhan and Aidulfitri away from family. feel any different? nah. but i must say that the feeling is the one who will always destroy the ego. maybe the time will come, maybe not. anyway, let me take this opportunity to greet everyone, Ramadhan Al-Mubarak and at the same time asking for forgiveness from everyone. being a human is easy, but to be a human who carries obligation, its always a bitter experience. but like what some people say, No Pain No Gain.

i have another 3 weeks before the big day arrive and as usual, the panic attack is here again to crush me and to make me feel like an empty jar. i hope i will be able fully utilise the time given to fill up the jar and face the big day. i hope with the barakah from the month of ramadhan, i will be able to be there, equip.

anyway, thats all for now. need to get back to my work and get my self ready for dinner. for all muslims out there, happy fasting and may all of us be bless by Allah for this special month.

p/s: waktu-waktu begini, kalau dipasang lagu sudirman, bisa mengalir air mata...

Is China a threat to regional stability in the Asia Pacific?

2006-09-28T08:40:00.000+10:00

It would be yes with respect to China growing capabilities and capacities as a world giant, economically and politically. With the growth in military armaments and the capability to manufacture nuclear weapons, China can be considered as a threat to the region. However few conditions need to be created in order to see how China can be a threat to the region.

It will be possible if;

- Taiwan decides to confront China requesting for independence and change their name into Republic of Taiwan. China as conventional has been firm on their interest on Taiwan and any immediate request from Taiwan will only worsen the situation. On the other hand, U.S has stated undoubtedly that they against any physical attack by China on Taiwan, it can be presume that if this clashes is happening, it will shake the relationship between China with its ASEAN neighbors, worsen their tension relationship with their long-lasting rivalry, Japan and in particular with the U.S. This will also invite the participation of South Korea in the dispute due to their position as U.S allies in East Asia.

- By having India and Pakistan as country with nuclear weapon capability in Asia will also increase the probability of China becoming the threat to Asia Pacific. Any border dispute between these three big Asia giant is enough to put the world on a shaky condition. Although India have never directly demonstrate their support to U.S regarding any issue that involve China, however this could be amended as a repayment to the U.S due to its favoring action on India in acknowledging them as a nuclear power state. While North Korea is assumed to have developed nuclear weapon, China has shown their reluctance to lay any pressure on them and this has also annoyed U.S. China with its aim to be at the par with U.S in current world affair will sooner or later use their capacity to stand off from any pressure created by U.S.

- Disputes among ASEAN country members and China about maritime border becoming unpleasant. Currently China is claiming a large area of South China Sea as their maritime territory however due historical matter, this issue remains disputed. Although the impact of this crisis will not affect the Asia Pacific region greatly, it can be predicted that if China does not handle this issue cautiously, it will trigger tension between China and countries within South China Sea. It is know that within this maritime territory, Philippines and Taiwan are among the claimers and having to have this two country involve in a dispute will only encourage the involvement of the U.S.

- i welcome anyone to have a say about this issue. this is an analysis base on international current affair and it represent my own analysis. therefore, please do not feel offended with it and i apologies for any inconveniene caused by it.

when there is a will, there is away...

2006-09-24T22:37:00.000+10:00

Oil fuelling Islamic finance sector

Sunday 24 September 2006, 8:15 Makka Time, 5:15 GMT

The Islamic finance sector is prospering due to a growing demand from investors, both Muslim and non-Muslim, and the flow of oil money from the Gulf.

Analysts estimate that the Islamic finance sector - which complies with Sharia law based on the Quran - is now worth up to $500 billion, compared to $200 billion two years ago.
Islamic retail banks and investment funds now number in the hundreds and financial institutions in non-Muslim countries, including Citigroup, Deutsche Bank, HSBC, Lloyds TSB and UBS, are increasingly choosing to offer products that are compatible with Sharia law Islamic finance bans the earning and payment of interest and forbids investment in businesses linked to the alcoholic drinks and gambling industries.

Japan will be the first major industrialised country to issue Islamic bonds if the Japan Bank for International Cooperation goes ahead with a plan aimed at attracting money from oil-rich Muslim countries.

'Better than ever'

"The [Islamic finance] industry is doing better than ever," said Rodney Wilson, director of post-graduate Islamic studies at Durham University in the northeast of England. "There is a lot of money flowing into the Islamic finance institutions and conventional banks which are also offering Islamic finance products. It's obviously related to the high price of oil and the money flowing into the Gulf countries, including Saudi Arabia, Kuwait and the United Arab Emirates".
Investments into the Gulf region are increasingly complying with Sharia law such as the building of a so-called economic city north of Jeddah in Saudi Arabia at a cost of $27 billion.
Islamic finance is also growing in southeast Asia. Earlier this month, the central bank of Malaysia said it planned to conduct Islamic financial business in international currencies to help increase investment from abroad.

Savings accounts

"The [Islamic finance] industry is doing better than ever". Rodney Wilson, director of postgraduate Islamic studies at Durham University, EnglandModern Islamic capitalism was created in Egypt during the early 1960s with the introduction of savings accounts. But in the 1990s it really took off with the development of Sharia investment funds. One area of Islamic finance which is burgeoning is the bond market, with much of the investment coming from non-Muslim overseas investors, according to a recent study by a London-based law firm. During the first half of 2006, the value of issued Islamic bonds, or sukuk, more than doubled to $4.585 billion, according to Trowers and Hamlins, whose offices abroad are based mainly in the Gulf region. Earlier this month, the Kuwait Finance House launched the first sukuk in China to finance construction of a power station, whose profits will be shared among investors.

Oil wealth

"There has been a huge inflow of oil wealth into Islamic investment funds which are, naturally enough, seeking Islamically-compliant vehicles, such as sukuks, in which to channel funds"Neale Downes, a partner at Trowers and Hamlins "There has been a huge inflow of oil wealth into Islamic investment funds which are, naturally enough, seeking Islamically-compliant vehicles, such as sukuks, in which to channel funds," said Neale Downes, a partner at Trowers and Hamlins. "Foreign investors represent an increasingly dominant segment of the market for Islamically-compliant debt. What is really significant is that they are now comfortable buying corporate sukuk and not just those issued by sovereign borrowers," he added.
The influence of Islamic finance is spreading across the world.

The International Swaps and Derivatives Association recently signed a deal with the International Islamic Financial Market, based in Bahrain, to define Islamic standards. While the leading Islamic speculative fund, Algo Al-Qayyim Fund, was approved in February to operate on the British island of Jersey. And according to a study last year by London South Bank University, the European property market is the preferred investment area for Islamic funds.

get this from http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/A098C4AA-C2D9-4D7C-8E39-9BCF6BEAE6D6.htm

in the kitchen...

2006-09-17T09:14:00.000+10:00

when there is a crack in a wall,
when there is a wind that blow,
we should know that,
there is nowhere a secret can be kept safe...

p/s: we never think what we might encounter later but we always keep ourself aware that danger is everywhere and there is nowhere we can excuse from meeting it...

antara aku dan DIA...

2006-09-07T17:00:00.000+10:00

sehari-harian aku mencari erti kehidupan, malah mungkin bukan seharian malah sepanjang kehidupan aku yang aku ingat. antara ingat atau lupa, banyak sudah pengalaman yang aku tempuh, samada berseorangan atau berkeluarga, tetapi selalunya berseorangan. pernah aku diajukan soalan, kenapa aku tidak berkongsi masalah tetapi hanya memilih untuk berkongsi kegembiraan dengan keluarga. persoalan itu hanya aku jawab hanya DIA yang sanggup mendengar permasalahan aku. hanya DIA yang akan membantu aku kelak tatkala semua manusia sibuk mencari menusia lain untuk melangsaikan 'hutang' dunia. aku pasti yang ada disitu hanya DIA dan DIA lah yang akan menentukan duka dan gembira aku.

keluarga hanya sementara malah keluarga hanya sebuah simbolik untuk perpaduan. tanpa keluarga, tiada institusi yang bisa berdiri tegak. walaupun aku sedar aku punya keluarga tetapi yang pasti sejarah tidak dapat aku perbaiki. sejarah hanya akan sah apabila ia diterima dengan rela. sejarah aku masih belum dan sukar untuk diterima malah sejarah aku pernah dihina oleh orang yang aku sayang. tetapi selama ini DIA yang membantu aku sehingga aku berdiri tegak di bumi asing. hanya DIA yang tahu mengapa aku disini. kitab yang dikarang oleh DIA adalah muktamad dan aku rela malah tanpa paksa aku terima.

sering kali aku terduduk apabila cuba menjawab persoalan hidup. mampukah aku berdiri sekali lagi untuk berdepan dengan persoalan hidup. suku abad tidak menandakan aku kuat didalam menjawab soalah hidup. hidupnya aku selama suku abad, hanya berdiri lagi bersendiri dan kadang-kadang dihiasi dengan carutan, hukuman dan penghinaan tatkala aku baru setahun jagung mengenal apa itu hidup, keluarga dan saudara mara.

makin jauh aku pergi, makin mudah untuk aku fahami kenapa aku disini. walaupun aku sekadar menumpang kasih didunia, DIA tidak pernah menjadikan aku sebahagian daripada penumpang. aku tidak pernah kenal erti ayah dan aku tidak pernah diperkenalkan erti sejarah hidup. yang yang telah diperkenalkan kepada aku ialah, perasaan beban dan rasa malu kerana kewujudan aku adalah kerana itu. tetapi DIA 'mengajar' aku bahwa, yang aku cari ialah kegembiraan akhirat dan bukan kegembiraan dunia. mungkin aku tidak akan mengetahui sejarah hidup aku yang sebenarnya, tetapi setiap hari yang aku lalui, aku sering bertanya kepada DIA, siapa aku dan kenapa aku dilahirkan dengan sejarah sedemikian rupa. tidak pernah aku sesali kewujudan aku, tetapi kesedihan akan timbul apabila sejarah hidup aku dipermainkan oleh orang yang aku sayangi dan dia merupakan sebahagian daripada sejarah itu. selama suku abad, aku hidup didalam teka-teki dan yang sering menjadi korban ialah perasaan seorang anak kecil yang hidup mudanya tidak pernah diperkenalkan siapa 'sejarahnya'.

untuk yang disayang, sebagai seorang dewasa,pengorbanan yang telah dibuat memanglah besar tetapi fahamilah, untuk seorang anak kecil mengorbankan kegembiraannya sewaktu kecil menghadapi setiap persoalan mengenai sejarah awalnya, adalah sesuatu yang amat memalukan dan mahu dielakkan dan jika mati itu adalah sebagai jawapan terakhir, mungkin itu yang akan dilaksanakan.

mungkin DIA tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku dan aku redha dengan apa yang telah ditentukan oleh DIA. aku tidak punya siapa kecuali seorang yang aku sayangi dan DIA. sekiranya aku pergi dahulu, DIA lah tempat aku mengadu dan DIA lah tempat untuk aku memohon pertolongan. aku tidak pernah bertanya malah sering mengelak untuk bertanya, bukan kerana takut, bukan kerana malu tetapi kerana ingin mejaga hati dan perasaan seorang dewasa yang telah berkorban untuk anak kecilnya. untuk yang tidak pernah mengalaminya, mudah untuk mereka mengatakan bahawa orang lain juga mempunyai sejarah yang sama, tetapi pernahkan mereka laluinya. ingin juga aku padamkan sejarah hidup aku agar tidak dipersoalkan lagi tetapi bisakah ia dilakukan.

untuk yang mengetahui diri aku, sedarlah, antara paksa atau rela, sejarah tidak pernah menipu tatepi yang menipu adalah sang penulis sejarah. terserahlah bagaimana sejarah itu hendak dikarang, tapi ingat yang hidup akan mati dan tatkala masa itu sampai, DIA lah penentu segalanya.

49 tahun...

2006-08-31T01:16:00.000+10:00

telah berlalu tahun itu,
telah berlalu sejarah itu,
hampir lupa kita siapa dia,
hampir lupa kita kemana dia...

masa itu umpama angin,
datang dan pergi,
tidak berbau lagi tidak berwarna,
hanya kehadirannya terasa...

darah yang tumpah tidak tertakung,
tubuh yang gugur umpama hamparan buruk,
keringat yang mengalir tidak terhenti,
nyawa taruhan, negara dipertahankan...

selama itu kita disini,
selama itu kita tidak bersendiri,
selama itu kita berdiri,
berlari dan berdikari...

ada apa pada rupa dan paras,
jika maruah negara dan bangsa tidak terdukung,
apa melayu itu 'malas',
apa melayu itu 'kudung'...

49 tahun sudah berlalu,
kita berdiri dan lagi bersendiri,
melaung perjuangan agama, negara dan bangsa melayu,
salam MERDEKA untuk ibu pertiwi...

MERDEKA, MERDEKA, MERDEKA...

aku...

2006-08-18T03:58:00.000+10:00

aku seorang,
dari lahir hingga sekarang,
mencari apa yang perlu dicari,
berkaki ayam, berarang tangan...

aku seorang,
lelah tak tersuara,
sakit tak berlagu,
merintih untuk perhatian...

aku seorang,
punya apa?,
hanya sekadar peminjam,
sampai waktu, pulang...

aku seorang,
kenal tidak apa itu sayang,
hati buta cintakan dunia,
kesal tak sudah, tiada harga...

aku seorang,
lagi mendayung,
perahu usang lagi berlobang,
hanya tawakal, pengubat bisa...

aku seorang,
punya hutang,
nyawa umpama taruhan,
kalah menang, apa yang membezakan...

aku seorang,
punyai emak,
hanya emak,
dan tiada lain selain emak...

the agreement to end fighting...

2006-08-14T12:04:00.000+10:00

Today, 14th August 2006, is the official day for Israel - Hezbollah War to be halt after Israel government "agrees" to United Nations Security Council resolution calling for a cessation of hostilities with Hezbollah guerrillas in Lebanon. Another reason for the world to start counting again, before another war break between Israel and the Arabs continues. Not being a pessimist, but rather be alert and aware for any possibilities. As the world push for a peace agreement between the two through its international organisation, the UN, it would be my best interest to see how far this agreement can stretch itself in order to prevent any new war between two parties (or three?) and how will the UN handle such crisis when their capability and credibility is under scrutinise.

If we would like to understand the crisis from another angle, this war is actually between a non-states actor which is Hezbollah (although Hezbollah reside in Lebanon territory, they dont represent the state) against a states actor, Israel. From here, we can understand that, Israel, due to their commitment to the UN as a member, it would be likely for them to cease fire under UN "persuasion". Here we can also see that, how desperate it is for the UN to find way to halt the war before the world turn their back against the UN.

As we go futher, another question arise, would Hezbollah do the same thing. As a non-states actors, it can be clearly understood that they have no obligation to the UN, they have no reason to obey to UN or to the world and this can be assume that they are "free" to change the situation again whenever they are ready, as long as they willing to face the consequence.

According to ABS-CBN Interactive online news, the death toll ratio between the Lebanese and the Israel soldier is 1 : 100. Although this ratio may not be accurate, it can be assume that the ratio of civilians that died during this war is true based on daily reports by newspaper all around the world. If we would like to think like a normal civilian, we might question ourself, Why the civilian? or Why this war broke up? or Where and when will it stop?. Who have the power to halt or prevent it from happening again? or Am I next?

With no prejudice or bias, I'm blessed to be far from the war but at the same time I feel guilty whenever I read the newspaper or listen to the news on tele about the war, either the Palestine-Israel War or the Lebanon-Israel War, killing all my potential Muslims brothers and sisters. I keep on asking myself, "What will happen to the Muslims in the next 10 or 20 years?". Should we change our Jihad approach or could we use another Jihad method, instead of "sacrificing" all our potential Muslims scientist, leaders, teachers or parents, why dont we try to educate ourself and others to design and work for a better Muslims spheres where dispute among the Muslims or non-Muslims is at the lowest level. It may sound Utopian, but if we really believe that everything is by Allah permission, why must we have doubt. We have Quran and Hadith, and we have many Muslims scholars with great knowledge but I must say that, partly, I agree with my dear friend Bangku when he wrote that part of the reason why we failed to maintain our unity when we unite is because "...we organize too much so-called "intellectual discourses" which are in reality are the sources of disagreement and weakness, rather than strength and unity.".

May Allah bless the decision and effort made by the Lebanon goverment, the Lebanese people and for all the people who work to maintain the peace in this world. With Allah permission, peace will reveal itself to humankind.

in my fragile state...

2006-08-11T20:47:00.000+10:00

i guess every moment have its own reason to exist. to interpret each second will require one a substantial knowledge. moment past us by without us having the capability to stop it from fading away. we see things when we never expect it to happened. we want to know something that what we want to know but the reality is what we should know is what we try to avoid the most. well i gueass, my journey have tought me something that i never wish. my journey have brought me to a place that i never dreamed. my journey introduced me to people that i want and dont want to meet.

will this journey be safe all the way or will this journey make me travel through a winding road, i never know. the path is visible when you step on it but as you travel, the path remain as how it should be. we listen to what we listen, we see what we see. we love what we love but love is something that we never own. may time permit me to learn from others and others to benefit from me.

we are friends, not enemies...

2006-08-08T01:31:00.000+10:00

among many bright stars, we should consider ourself as the lucky one. the one who have the oppotunity to breath the foreign air from a foreign soil. although we might find ourself being different compare to the others back home , but some how or rather, its not. after three years of living in a foreign soil, most experienced that i've learned teach me how to be more appreciative of the county where i come from. i've learned that being a foreigner require one to be strong, physically and mentally. albeit all the difficulties learned while living abroad, i found that back home, the life is much safer in a way where everyone is looking after everyone's backs.

but as we read online news or chain-emails or blogs a.k.a independent newspapers, dont be suprise if what we read is so different from what we understand. i feel sad to discover that malaysia is now going through a difficult time and facing a lot challenge, more on domestic issue rather than international issue. as the world are getting more globally interdependence, we are still caught in the domestic net.

flipping through my unit reader the other day, i came across to a title of an article by Aaron Friedberg in the Survival (2000), "Is Europe's past Asia's future?". it struck me like a lightning, challenge me to answer the question. but as my focus is more on South East Asian bloc, i just remind myself, stick to the original plan. but yes, are we there yet?. are we heading towards the same direction or are we creating our own path.? i guees we dont have to go far to understand this question, enough just by concentrating the highlight to malaysia. i guess history never lies but as always, it depends on the storyteller intention. reflecting the issue of Article 11, correct me if im wrong, is almost similar to what the Westener especially the European has experienced back in 15th century ago. the impact of the history is the emerged of a secular goverment.

what malaysia is going through now, if not treated properly and with extra care would cost a severe damage and the effects of it will affect malaysia itself and to other muslims countries. as the transaction is about to happen, we are caught in between our belief and reality. as i try to understand the issue of Article 11, from both side, one of my concern is, what will happen to Malaysia, domestically and internationally in regards to the decision made by the decision-maker? as the pressure grows domestically, i guess now we should start thinking further. yes, it's true that for a sovereign state, we have the capacity to rule our country according to the constitution but less we forget, in a globalise world we are not immune from the international societies and NGO's threat and pressure. as we keep ourself busy with domestic issue, as part of the international community, i guess we should also prepare ourself to face the consequence due to this issue later, internationally. the pressure that we might get in the future could be worse than now.

p/s: i think, to be united is good, but the foundation and pillar of unity is the most important thing.

antara kapal, nakhoda dan anak-anak kapal...

2006-08-05T22:13:00.000+10:00

agak menarik apabila sebuah perbualan mampu membuat kita berfikir. bukannya setiap perbualan itu omong kosong, tapi sekiranya perbualan itu mampu membuatkan kita berfikir, alangkah menarik.

antara ketiga-tiga objek, yang mana satu memainkan peranan yang penting. nakhoda punya kepakaran didalam mengendalikan kapal. walaupun kepakaran tersebut juga dipunyai oleh anak-anak kapal, tetapi kepakaran nakhoda sukar ditandingi (walaupun boleh dipersoalkan). tetapi dalam waktu yang sama, kapal juga turut memainkan peranan yang paling penting. tanpa kapal, siapalah nakhoda dan anak-anak kapal. kapal yang baik bisa pergi jauh malah perjalanannya juga akan menjadi selesa.

persoalan yang cuba dijawab oleh aku dan teman-teman dari indo ialah bagaimana untuk mengendalikan sebuah kapal yang sudah usang dan kapal tersebut terdiri daripada anak-anak kapal yang sudah lanjut usianya malah degil dan sering membawa haluan sendiri. sebagai seorang nakhoda yang baru (dan muda), malah pengalamannya bukan datang dari pengalaman seorang anak kapal, tapi dari sebuah institusi perkapalan, oleh itu cabaran yang bakal ditempuh sudah pasti hebat. kapal yang usang menantikan masa untuk pecah (tapi mustahil) dan anak-anak kapal yang berpengalaman tapi degil pasti sukar dikendalikan. antara dua, sudah pasti lebih mudah mengendalikan kapal yang usang tetapi dalam waktu yang sama, anak-anak kapal tidak boleh diremehkan. sudah pasti, nakhoda akan berada didalam keadaan yang sukar sekiranya anak-anak kapal diremehkan, bukan kerana sukar untuk mengendalikan sebuah kapal usang bersendirian, tapi mungkin akan terdedah kepada keadaan dimana nakhoda akan dicampakkan kedalam lautan luas oleh anak-anak kapal atau pun akan difitnah keburukkannya (seksaan yang paling kejam di dalam dunia jika dibandingkan dengan hukuman bunuh).

untuk seorang nakhoda berhenti daripada mengendalikan sesebuah kapal, sudah pasti akan memberikan reputasi yang buruk. antara tiga, secara tidak langsung, objek keempat muncul tanpa disangka-sangka. objek keempat yang dimaksudkan ialah bekas nakhoda kepada kapal yang dikendalikan oleh nakhoda muda. kritikan demi kritikan malah kemampuan nakhoda muda dipersoalkan, baik dari jauh mahupun dekat. sebagai seorang nakhoda di zaman moden, urusan perkapalan bukan hanya melibatkan urusan perkapalan domestik malah urusan perkapalan antarabangsa juga perlu diambil kira.

antara domestik dan antarabangasa, urusan perkapalan melibatkan kapal yang dikendalikan. sudah pasti, dengan kapal yang usang tetapi dilengkapi dengan teknologi dan sistem pertahanan moden serta dibantu oleh anak-anak kapal yang hanya menunggu masa untuk mengambil tempat nakhoda muda, tidak akan membawa sebarang perubahan malah mengundang cabaran. dari segi pertahanan, walaupun moden, tetapi dengan sebuah kapal yang usang, masa yang diperlukan untuk menghancurkan kapal tersebut tidak memerlukan masa yang panjang malah mudah sekirnaya anak-anak kapal ditewaskan dahulu dengan janji-janji keduniaan.

antara sedar, akhirnya aku terbangun dari mimpi realiti bahawa aku adalah anak kepada anak-anak kapal yang usang itu. antara sedar aku merasakan bahawa untuk hidupnya generasi aku yang akan datang juga bergantung kepada kapal usang tersebut malah aku juga sedar antara mahu atau tidak, tanggungjawab itu perlu dipikul oleh aku. biarpun generasi anak-anak kapal sekarang degil dan sudah lanjut usianya, sudah pasti kapal itu bakal diterajui oleh anak-anak kepada anak-anak kepal yang sekarang. biarpun hak milik kapal itu bisa berubah ketangan nakhoda lain, tapi yang pasti, kapal itu sudah dipunyai oleh satu nakhoda sudah hampir selama 49 tahun. maka, subjek kelima yang memainkan peranan penting untuk kapal usang tersebut untuk bisa belayar lebih lama, ialah anak-anak kepada anak-anak kapal yang sedia ada.

iya, 49 tahun bukan satu tempoh yang panjang malah ia juga tidak pendek. mungkin yang ada akan pergi dan akan datang tak punya kekuatan, tetapi yang pasti kapal usang itu akan terus belayar. belayar sehingga ke destinasi yang ingin ditujui. salam merdeka untuk semua anak-anak malaysia, baik yang dekat mahupun yang jauh.

how far...

2006-08-04T11:44:00.000+10:00

the OIC members were having a special meeting in Putrajaya yesterday in regards to the current situation in Lebnon. the president of OIC, malaysia current prime minister, Abdullah Ahmad Badawi is carrying a big task on his shoulder in driving the OIC team to provide an alternative solution in order to either persuade Lebnon and Israel to stop the war or by any means, make an effort to halt it for a certain period of time before any further peace making move could be made by the UN. whether this meeting will provide a solution or just a mere discussion, will reflect the image of Islamic nation. could this be the starting point for all the Islamic country leaders to put themselve on a reality ground and to realise that the world is on our side at the moment. we, have been living in fantasies for such a long period and the question that arise now is; "should we answer to the wake up call or should we just press the snooze button and keep on dreaming?".

the latter action will only delay the peace process in the middle east and at the same time, without our consent and realisation, we are actually losing a lot of our potential future leaders. reminding myself, in the first para of brief history of OIC, it is clearly stated that OIC and the members has decided "to pool their resources together, combine their efforts and speak with one voice to safeguard the interest and ensure the progress and well-being of their peoples and those of other Muslims in the world over."

will the 54 state actors in OIC take the responsibility to fullfill this promise or should we just let the non-state actors grab the oppurtunity to handle this responsibility, like what we are witnessing now.

if what we see now in Lubnan doesnt really move them into making an affirmative action in providing solution or taking a firm stand, i guess we should just question them "If not now, when?". the cries, the pledge will be useless if we still cant convince ourself that we are capable of doing something, not only for Lebnon or Palestine, but for the rest of the world regardless they are Muslim or non-Muslim.

p/s:we cry, we shout, we protest...but who are we if we a not united....

ada apa dengan cinta...

2006-07-30T19:30:00.000+10:00

(13) The God-fearing believers shall be against the rebellious or him who seeks to spread injustice, or sin or animosity, or corruption between believers; the hand of every man shall be against him even if he be a son of one of them.
The first written constitution of a State ever promulgated by a sovereign in human history emanated from the Prophet of Islam. It was enacted from the first year of Hijrah (622 CE). The treaty stipulated a city state in Medina, allowing wide autonomy to communities. Private justice was to be banished. The head of the State had the prerogative to decide who should participate in an expedition, the war and peace being indivisible. Social insurance was to be instituted.

berat mata memandang, berat lagi hati yang menanggung. atas dosa apa mereka diperlakukan sedemikian rupa. hanya dengan perbezaan ideology, darah yang tumpah umpama air yang mengalir dari sungai yang kecil. setelah berperang selama lebih dari 2 minggu, yang hanya kedengaran adalah suara-suara sumbang yang hanya bisa mencarut tanpa henti dan tangan-tangan lemah, yang hanya mampu menulis dan membakar bendera. apa cinta itu memilih rupa, warna dan darah. cinta itu untuk siapa sahaja. dijadikan manusia oleh Allah dangan sifat cinta dan kasih serta sayang tapi tampak dengan jelas, itu semua hanya dibelakang tabir. yang bisa nampak ialah amarah dan nafsu yang mana sifatnya seperti kuda. sampai bila umat Rasullulah akan sedar bahawa yang dihadapan mereka adalah musuh yang lengkap serba serbinya, baik fizikal, mental mahupun ilmunya. umat Rasullullah juga adalah yang terbaik, tapi antara kita sedar atau tidak, kita lupa bahawa yang kita lawan bukan sahaja musuh yang nyata malah musuh yang tidak kelihatan. ada apa dengan membakar bendera sekiranya kita hanya sekadar berdiri tegak, melaungkan slogan anti-keganasan tapi pada waktu yang sama saudara-saudara dekat kita tidak dibela. memang benar saudara-saudara kita yang terkorban di Palestin dan Lubnan berhak mendapat perhatian, tapi yang lebih afdal ialah saudara-saudara kita yang dihadapan mata kita. sedih dan pilu melihat saudara-saudara di Palestin dan Lubnan, tapi hati ini lagi sedih melihat saudara-saudara sendiri di tanah air saling membaling batu sesama sendiri. persoalan antara besar atau kecil batu yang dibaling, tidak menjadi masalah.

antara sedar, kita diajar, yang muda disayangi dan yang tua dihormati. tapi yang kelihatan hanyalah yang muda dan yang tua. sifatnya hilang entah kemana. apa adat itu hilang atau pupus sekiranya kita saudara Islam. Islam mencerminkan peribadi kita tapi dalam waktu yang sama adat mencerminkan darimana kita datang. islam yang diajar tidak mengenal kaum,umur ataupun negara malah Islam mengajar kita untuk menghormati apa yang kita ada. kita punya apa yang tidak dipunyai oleh yang bukan Islam tapi kita mensia-siakannya tanpa memperdulikan akibatnya. kita juga lupa bahawa yang berkuasa keatas setiap mahkluk yang bernyawa adalah Allah dan setiap yang berlaku adalah diatas izinnya. tapi antara sedar atau tidak, kita lupa setelah kejayaan demi kejayaan kita kecapi, kita yakin bahawa itu semua diatas usaha dan keringat diri sendiri. kita lupa bahawa tangan dan kaki itu punya siapa tetapi kejayaan yang kita perolehi, dalam megah dan riak kita berkata "Ini adalah usaha aku sendiri. Kalau tidak kerana aku berusaha, masakan aku akan peroleh kejayaan".

saudara-saudara Palestin dan Lubnan, kejayaan hanya datang sekiranya kita sedar bahawa musuh kita bukan patung yang bernyawa. musuh kita lengkap, selengkapnya. bukan dengan cara berperang fizikal dapat mengalahkan musuh, tetapi dengan kekuatan ilmu akan membawa kita lebih jauh. Rasullullah tidak berperang hanya untuk menunjukkan bahawa orang Islam itu kuat tapi Rasullullah berperang pada jalan Allah. antara lupa, kita tidak sedar bahawa Piagam Madinah yang telah dibuat oleh Rasullullah pada tahun 622 masihi adalah piagam atau perlembagaan yang pertama seumpamanya di dunia. bukankah ini contoh yang baik untuk kita pelajari. perdamaian dan persengketaan dapat dielakkan hanya dengan sekeping kertas, berdakwatkan warna hitam, bukannya berdakwat dengan darah. saudara-saudara Palestin dan Lubnan, gunakanlah apa yang diberi oleh Allah yang mana tidak diberikan kepada haiwan kerana kurniaan itulah yang menbezakan kita dan haiwan.

saudara-saudara tanah air, janganlah kerana perbezaan fahaman dan butakan kuasa, membuatkan kita hilang apa telah kita perolehi selama 49 tahun. bukan mudah walaupun banyak yang tergadai. apa yang hilang mungkin sukar untuk dikembalikan, tapi apa yang dipunyai tidak akan selamanya bersama kita jika tidak dipelihara. kita lihat apa yang terjadi pada saudara-saudara jauh dan kita sedih kerana kita cintakan saudara kita. tapi yang lebih afdal ialah cintakan saudara dekat kita dan cintakan tanah air kita. saudara, Islam mengajar kita untuk pelihara apa yang terbaik untuk diri kita dan tidak lupa kepada yang berada disekeliling kita. Islam tidak mengajar kita untuk tidak menghormati yang bukan Islam malah Islam mengajar kita untuk meghormati yang bukan Islam dan pelihara keselamatan mereka. Sekiranya berlaku keadaan dimana kehormatan kita diremehkan, cerminkanlah diri kita dahulu sebelum jari ditudingkan kepada insan yang tak bersalah. kita sering lupa dan kita sering melupakan.

merdeka itu mudah dilaungkan tapi amat susah untuk didapatkan. cintakan agama, tanah air, keluarga dan bangsa. cinta itu tidak buta tapi yang buta adalah sang pencinta. salam merdeka untuk saudara di tanah air dan semoga merdeka saudara-saudara Palestin dan Lubnan. semoga Allah bersama mereka yang berjuang kerana Allah dan semoga Allah merahmati perpaduan dan persaudaraan di tanah air.

antara dua hati...

2006-07-28T18:00:00.000+10:00

antara dua hati,
ada dua jiwa,
ada dua nyawa...

antara dua hati,
pasti ada yang sayang,
dan pasti ada yang disayang...

antara dua hati,
masa itu singkat,
jarak itu dekat...

antara dua hati,
yang pahit itu ubat,
yang manis itu sihat...

antara dua hati,
yang gelap itu cantik,
yang cerah itu molek...

antara dua hati,
yang kaca itu pasti intan,
yang berkilau itu pasti permata...

tapi antara dua hati itu,
persoalan demi persoalan,
yang hadir hanya keraguan,
sampai bila dan kemana,
entah apa kesudahannya...

p/s:human live their future life with his/her consequence due to their previous action or decision...i walk alone, barefoot and empty hand...just to find more hurdles and barriers...

through one small hole, we see one big mistake...

2006-07-22T07:14:00.000+10:00

reading and listening and dicussing about how the world is being organised can drive someone crazy. with the current situation in lebanon, with the second tsunami in indonesia and with many other issues around the world, to small to mention, i realised that the future of this world is at the edge of a sword. will power hegemony overwrite the multipolar power sharing or will the war against anything be accepted without people's consent.

while my focus is more on how does one state protect themself from other's, it does have some connection with the current world system. i believe that, what we are witnessing now, is not new. although the method and the application of pursuing power is different from the past, the objective always remain intact, to overcome the fear of other's in terms of their power increament. this semester i will have the oppportunity to master myself with the topic of international security. as last semester really thought me about the international relations, i hope this semester will make me more familiar with the world, geographically, economically and hopefully politically.

born in a country consisting of 14 states, each have their own sovereign territory, i believe what Malaysia is experiencing now is a very crucial moment. observing from far, listening from others, and critically evaluating each scenes and events, worried me so much. as for people out there who have interest in discussing the topic of international security, in any forms, come and join me. as for people who concern about the national issue in malaysia, i would invite you guys to participate critically with me. i guess, the more the merrier with the hope that, the outcome will always be positive. thast all for now, lets kick in and make a move. ta.

p/s:

"In the field of observation, chance favors only the prepared mind."
Louis Pasteur (1822 - 1895), lecture 1854

im back...

2006-07-20T09:06:00.000+10:00

"They were so strong in their beliefs that there came a time when it hardly mattered what exactly those beliefs were; they all fused into a single stubbornness."
Louise Erdrich (1954 - )

time doesnt belong to us. we may find that sometimes, we manage to complete what we plan but most of the time we failed to do so. within 7 days ago, i've managed to travel into 3 states and i discovered that what i know now, is to little to be proud of. sometime we make ourself look like we are the best among the best, but the fact is that, we are just part of the mechanism. if we failed, there is a posibility that we might fail the system. through my converstion with various type of people, coming from different background and thinking, and at the same time trying to improve my empirical skill, i found out that most of us believe in what we belief, so much. each of us no matter how, will always try to maintain our believes and on top of that, we try to blend our belief with others, either with force or voluntarily. the question of whether to agree or to disagree with others belief, is not the case here. im a stubborn person but the reason why i behave like that is because i know what im doing and i know what i know. i know how it feels, argueing with others, but now i've learned that, to be a stubborn person, one's require knowledge. there is no way you can be stubborn if you do not know what you are doing. anyway, i would like to say "Thank You" to every person that i met during my journey and i hope that both of us, me and everyone, do gain something from each other. the question of whether time will permit us to meet again, will always remain unanswered therefore my apology to everyone as well if im being rude, but that's who i am. lets look it from the positive way and keep on moving yah. alrighty, have a good day and see ya soon.

p/s: congratulation to my respected cousin for his graduation on 21st July 2006. i hope you will find what you are looking for. best wishes from me and the others, have a good life and remember, we a brothers.

the common sense and the uncommmon...

2006-06-23T18:28:00.000+10:00

"Common sense, indeed!" said the Rocket indignantly; "you forget that I am very uncommon, and very remarkable. Why, anybody can have common sense, provided that they have no imagination. But I have imagination, for I never think of things as they really are; I always think of them as being quite different. As for keeping myself dry, there is evidently no one here who can at all appreciate an emotional nature. Fortunately for myself, I dont's care. The only thing that sustains one through life is the consciousness of the immense inferiority of everybody else, and this is a feeling that I have always cultivated. But none of you have any hearts. Here you are laughing and making merry just as if the Prince and Princess had not just been married."

Oscar Wilde, 1854 - 1900 "The Remarkable Rocket" in The Happy Prince and other Other Tales (1888)

quarter of the century...

2006-06-08T18:15:00.000+10:00

with all the care and love,
with all the pain and hurt,
with all the happiness and sadness,
with all the income and expenditure,
with all the good and bad experiences,
with all the people who i share this space,
with all the complaints and praises,
with all the strenght and weeknesses,
with all the bruise and scars,

with God permission,
with mom on one side,
with siblings on the other,
with relative at the rear,
with friends around,

here i am,
from nothing to crawling,
from standing to walking,
from running to jumping,
at the age of quarter of the century...

p/s:

"He who is of calm and
happy nature will hardly feel the pressure of age, but to him who is of an
opposite disposition youth and age are equally a burden."
Plato

(427 BC - 347 BC)
in 'The Republic'

when two heads clash...

2006-06-04T16:15:00.000+10:00

morality in one side, should be consider as an essential principles for all humankinds but as one should notice, nowadays moral is being put aside or in some cases, being negotiated. i saw this printed quote on my friend's bedroom window;

"Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life. Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something."Henry David Thoreau (1817 - 1862)

i can say that, a man without moral, will be govern by their nature instinct and therefore, will cause harm, either to themself or to others. as we proceed with the next civilisation, albeit, it will be different from the previous, i can say that the basic thing will never change. man is capable to mutate themself to suit the environment, for good or for worst, and this would not change their natural instinct or behaviour as a man.

out of many, one definition of moral that could be achieve from the internet , thanks to wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn is;

concerned with principles of right and wrong or conforming to standards of behavior and character based on those principles; "moral sense"; "a moral scrutiny"; "a moral lesson"; "a moral quandary"; "moral convictions"; "a moral life"

but, as we can see in the current world, to determine whether is something is right or wrong, depends on whose interest get serve and not because it is actualy right or wrong. while my intention is to study, why men go to war or in another perspective, why they create a war, does involve the issue of morality. Machiavelli, as many knows, believe that humans have nothing to lose when they go to war but will eventually gain something if and only if, thay win the war. He even proposed that, for a man to lead a state, nothing should bother him except on how to win a war. Quoted by him;

"A prince should therefore have no other aim or thought, nor take up any other thing for his study but war and it organization and discipline, for that is the only art that is necessary to one who commands."Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince

to be continued...

i have to stop now as i have something to finish. i'll try to finish this when i have enough information. for the time being, have a happy life and try not to complaint so much. alrighty, cheers.

p/s:with a sore knee and a pair of crutches, im wondering whether am i fit to work tomorrow night...

approach to international relations...

2006-05-31T14:30:00.000+10:00

here is my conclusion;

psychologicaly, every human comprises each of this elements and its up to them, which one of this elements that they would like to focus on more...

- liberalist and the neo
- rationalist and the neo
- realist and the neo
- functionalist and the neo
- idealist and the neo

why i say this;

going through this semester with this subject make me realise, the only way the UN can be relevant to the humankind is by persuading each member of the organization, is to respect and to trust any sovereign states in this world regardless their background, color or their -ism. while this is important, it is the most hardest thing to apply on. it may sound like an idealist or liberalist, but as what Hyman Rickover said;

"Good ideas are not adopted automatically. They must be driven into practice with courageous patience."
Hyman Rickover (1900 - 1986)

my simplest view on how this can be work out is through the example of the ASEAN. after 30 years of 'friendship', i believe that this two elements are the recipe for their success; respect and trust. here are the fundamental principles of ASEAN which i believe does a good job in creating peace within the region and at the same time making sure that diplomacy works in duplex and not simplex:

FUNDAMENTAL PRINCIPLES
The Treaty of Amity and Cooperation (TAC) in Southeast Asia, signed at the First ASEAN Summit on 24 February 1976, declared that in their relations with one another, the High Contracting Parties should be guided by the following fundamental principles:

- Mutual respect for the independence, sovereignty, equality, territorial integrity, and national identity of all nations;
- The right of every State to lead its national existence free from external interference, subversion or coercion;
- Non-interference in the internal affairs of one another;
- Settlement of differences or disputes by peaceful manner;
- Renunciation of the threat or use of force; and
- Effective cooperation among themselves.

although they have nothing in common except their facial look or body figure, it seems that by sharing a common goal while at the same time try to pursue their national interest, trust and respect is only key to diplomacy.

p/s:

"Far better to think historically, to remember the lessons of the past. Thus, far better to conceive of power as consisting in part of the knowledge of when not to use all the power you have. Far better to be one who knows that if you reserve the power not to use all your power, you will lead others far more successfully and well."
A. Bartlett Giamatti (1938 - 1989), President of Yale University

and to me, this is how i look at it;

"If you ask for power, you could destroy a nation, but if you ask for a chance, you will lead a nation."

as i continue reading...

2006-05-24T01:19:00.000+10:00

i spend the whole day try to finish all my reading...try to find the right thing to complete my work on functionalism and globalisation...found few good quote and here, i present it to you...

"Peace will not be secured if we organize the world by what divides it" -(Mitrany 1943)

"the growing economic interdependence of countries worldwide through increasing volume and variety of cross-border transactions in goods and services, free international capital flows, and more rapid and widespread diffusion of technology" -(IMF)

p/s: two different thinking, try to modify the world to best suit the people but work on different dimension and time...as one proceed to create a better world with peace as the end result, the later, with the same intention, carry problematic issue with it...

dari mulut ke telinga, dari telinga ke hati...

2006-05-09T23:13:00.000+10:00

antara manusia,
apa yang membezakan mereka,
rupa paras, bentuk tubuh atau ketinggian ilmu,
tapi ini tidak disoal,
hanya yang cerdik,
akan kenal dan boleh membezakan,
antara kaca dan intan...

antara manusia,
rambut tak sama,
hati jauh sekali,
akal tidak terukur,
ilmu tidak dapat diselami,
pandangan tidak berpaksi...

antara manusia,
mungkin hasad menghantui,
atau iklas yang dicari,
laluan demi laluan,
hari demi hari,

antara manusia,
sayang itu disorok,
amarah yang ditunjuk,
kuasa jadi penunjuk...

antara manusia,
tinggi tak terukur,
rendah tak terpijak...

antara manusia,
tidak pernah lekang sifat buruk sangka...

antara manusia, siapalah kita...

the mountain is white today...

2006-05-03T12:07:00.000+10:00

Artist: Dashboard Confessional
Song: So Long Sweet Summer

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It's cold where you're going
I hope that your heart's always warm
I gave you the best
Gave you the best that I have

So, so long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

I hate the winter, in Lexington
I hate the winter, in Lexington
In Lexington, Lexington, Lexington

p/s: Mt Wellington is covered with snow this morning. that answer to my question why it was so cold last night. practically, this song conclude everything i want to say today. but unfortunately, the song refer to Lexington and not Hobart...its alright...im not complaining nor being appreciative...its just a song...

reason why i admire him as a leader...

2006-04-25T19:01:00.000+10:00

i would like to share a few words with anyone who may be reading this and in particular to those who aspire to be leaders someday. as taken from bernama on april 24, 2006, Malaysian Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi who was commenting about his goverment's economic policy on RMK9 and i quote...

"Never mind that I may not build great monuments or glittering cities. What is important to me is that what we do today, what we change today, will enable us to succeed now and far into the future."

"...while politicians wanted to be popular, popularity must not come ahead of doing the right thing."

"I do not like bailouts. The rest you will have to work it out."

i believe that the following quote is of most importance and should be taken into account by all future leaders...

"I am prepared to lend my political capital and assert my political will to see changes in our education system that will enable us to foster this environment early on for our youth."

taken from online news article by Bernama, titled "PM Says Not His Policy To Spend And Burden Future Generations", april 24, 2006.

p/s: to be moderate is to invite somebody to contest what we believe. to some people popularity can go as far as becoming a life ambition. not that there is anything wrong with being popular, it is just that there is more than popularity when it comes to leadership.

wahai melayu, sejarah itu untuk.....

2006-04-19T13:26:00.000+10:00

...kita pelajari,
...kita tafsiri,
...dijadikan bahan bacaan,
...membuatkan hati yang lemah menjadi sedar,
...kita selidiki,
...kita fahami,

tapi ada ketikanya, sejarah itu membuatkan kita buta bahawa yang dihadapan tidak akan sama seperti yang lalu, malah lebih perit dan pahit untuk ditelan. dasarnya, melayu bukan muda di mata sejarah, tetapi ia dikaburkan oleh melayu itu sendiri. kaki yang diberi, tongkat yang dicari. malah, tangan yang dipimpin, tangan itu juga yang melipat tangan yang memimpin. wahai melayu, sedar atau tidak kita masih mencari. mencari baju untuk dipakai, tetapi antara sedar kita mengukur baju itu pada badan orang lain. yang baik adalah si monyet, tetapi yang jahat adalah si kancil walaupun kita adalah dari kaum kancil. mungkin sejarah tidak akan berulang, tetapi ia sengaja diulang agar kita punya alasan untuk dijadikan sebagai pendinding.

p/s: while we hate our own people, we tend to put all the good highlight on others. while i live far, my people are the one that i will look after. to hate is to deviate, to love is to ruin but for what ever reason is, loyalty is irreplaceable.

untuk bonda dan kekanda ku...

2006-04-10T12:40:00.000+10:00

yang hilang berganti...
yang patah akan tumbuh...
yang muda akan tua...
yang tua akan mati...

yang disayang akan pergi...
yang dibenci makin mendekati...
walhal, kita masih mencari...
terus mencari...

barangkali tidak diketahui apa yang dicari...
hanya hati yang masih meratapi...
setelah hilang suatu yang dikasihi...
baru diketahui apa itu mati...

p/s: i live my life long enough to be far away from my family. the question is, if one day some one offer me a rewind button where i can rewind everything again back to the point that i want...will i have the guts to accept the offer or will i just run and keep on searching for the thing that i want...

wahai melayu, marilah...

2006-04-10T00:13:00.000+10:00

Melayu perlu kurangkan hiburan

PEKAN 8 April - Orang Melayu diingatkan supaya mengurangkan aktiviti yang menjurus kepada hiburan yang tidak berfaedah kerana ia boleh menyebabkan mereka merempat di tanah air sendiri.

Ketua Penerangan UMNO, Tan Sri Muhammad Muhd Taib berkata, pengaruh hiburan yang melalaikan itu adalah salah satu punca kemunduran orang Melayu sehingga usaha kerajaan untuk membangunkan mereka menemui kegagalan.

Menurutnya, orang Melayu tidak boleh berasa selamat selama-lamanya kerana mendapat segala kemudahan yang disediakan oleh kerajaan, sebaliknya perlu berusaha keras seperti kaum lain.

Katanya, orang Melayu mudah berasa selesa walaupun mereka sebenarnya tidak menguasai ekonomi dan bidang-bidang profesional yang lain.

``Sebaliknya orang bukan Melayu yang tidak menikmati kemudahan seperti itu sentiasa bekerja keras bagi mencapai kejayaan.

``Mereka sentiasa menanamkan `sifat' berasa tidak selamat berada di negara sendiri supaya kaum mereka sentiasa berusaha keras bagi menguasai semua bidang ilmu,'' katanya.

Beliau berkata demikian semasa berucap di majlis penerangan mengenai Cabaran dan Survival Bangsa anjuran UMNO Bahagian Pekan di Dewan Majlis Perbandaran Pekan, di sini hari ini.

Muhammad berkata, jika orang Melayu tidak memanfaatkan segala kemudahan yang disediakan oleh kerajaan bagi meningkatkan kualiti hidup, menguasai ekonomi serta bidang-bidang utama yang lain, peluang-peluang tersebut akan `dirampas' oleh orang bukan Melayu.

Katanya, pada masa ini, orang Melayu mungkin tidak begitu melihat keperluan menguasai ilmu dan ekonomi tetapi kesannya akan ditanggung oleh generasi masa depan.

``Kemakmuran negara pada tahun 2020 akan dinikmati oleh bangsa bukan Melayu walaupun mereka ini sebenarnya tidak mendapat bantuan dan manfaat secara langsung daripada kerajaan sebelum ini,'' kata Muhammad Taib.

p/s: when we look into a mirror, we want to see someone who look like us...but now, it seems like when we look into a mirror, the figure is blurry...and it is replaced by an ugly figures...which doesnt look loke us...lets do something tp make it look better...it's better late than never...

things that make me laugh by myself...

2006-04-06T22:27:00.000+10:00

i was browsing the net, looking for some info on blacberry's phone or what ever you want to call it...it's a funny thing but yes, i'm looking for one...just to add my gadget collection...i know it wont serve me that much, but yeah...it's better to try rather than giving out review about it without trying...plus, i'm looking for the old and ugly looking blakcberry phone and not the new up-to-date one...

anyway, here i want to share with you guys some of the reviews given by many people on the net about 'them':

"This is typewriter. Where's my 'ping' button??"

"Wat a interesting calculator!!oh,wait..its a hp,hmm..not bad..da design is gud....reminds me of da calculator dat i always use,wait..its a hp.."

"The best thing that hit the market since sliced bread."

"This phone is the bongo, of all bongo phones."

p/s:now i'm crazy about 'them'. whats next...

who have the power, the media, the people or the government?

2006-04-04T20:32:00.000+10:00

the rules and laws are designed by the goverment to maintain and to control the stability within the state's border. but it can be seen that nowadays, the rules and laws are so fragile to a certain level where it can be manipulated by the media for their own profit-making while at the same time, trying to convince the people that what they are doing now is for the people's benefits. will there be a shift of power in information distribution between the government and the media. while the air is still clear for us the see the star, one day it will be full with transparent paper which will blind us with untrue and unsupported information due to the war between the goverment and the media. we as the people will only, if and only if, with our own desire, one day understand and accept that the goverment has tried their best to serve the people and the media who is the one who play the devil-with-angel-looking-game are the one who we should not trust.

p/s:while we confuse ourself with all the news and informations that we receive from the traditional and untraditional news resources, instead, we should spend our extra time reading comics that have moral value inside it.

kemana hilangnya permata nationalisme kita...

2006-03-30T18:16:00.000+11:00

apa telah tumpul semangat nasionalisme pada rakyat malaysia pada hari ini dan kemana hilangnya sifatnya dimana bumi dipijak, disitu langit dijunjung pada mereka. apa kepercayaan kepada parti boleh mengenepikan soal maruah negara. mungkin ini tidak dirasa oleh golongan yang tinggal di bumi malaysia, tetapi menjadi tanda tanya kepada diri sendiri yang tinggal jauh tentang apa sebenarnya yang berlaku dan mengapa ia beraku disebalik permainan politik malaysia. mungkin permainan politik malaysia telah mengkaburi mata sesetengah manusia tentang apa itu tanggungjawab.

perbualan bersama seorang teman menyedarkan bahawa, permainan politik yang dimainkan selama ini bukanlah atas dasar keikhlasan tetapi pada dasarnya ialah kerana tamakkan kuasa. kuasa yang dicari dengan alasan untuk melakukan perubahan. tidak salah malah ada benarnya kuasa mampu merubah segalanya. sejarah tidak pernah tersimpang dari satu sama lain walaupun sekiranya sejarah itu adalah sebuah sejarah dongeng malah ada yang memang benar-benar dongeng. tetapi yang penting disebalik sejarah atau dongeng tadi ialah moral ceritannya. melalui sejarah dapat dilihat bahawa, dengan kuasalah firaun menjadi tamak. dan dengan kuasalah, namrud menjadi lupa diri. dan akhirnya ia memakan diri.

apa dengan kuasa, baru sesuatu perkara dilaksanakan. malah adakah dengan kuasa, sebarang perkara boleh ditundukkan dan dihentikan sesuka hati. apa akal fikiran yang waras tidak penting lagi dan sifat amarah yang diambil menjadi kayu ukuran. tidak berguna sekiranya ilmu yang dicari selama bertahun-tahun hanya untuk diguna pakai ketika waras sahaja. tetapi ketika wujudnya sifat amarahlah itulah, ilmu sangat-sangat diperlukan. jari telunjuk bukan hanya untuk mencari siapa salah, tetapi ianya juga boleh digunakan sebagai penunjuk mencari jawapan penyelesaian. bukan hanya sekadar berdiri megah dibawah panas matahari dan bersuara kuat sahaja dapat merubah keadaan dan situasi semasa. mungkin untuk jangka masa pendek, ia berguna. tetapi persoalannya ialah, berapa lama kita sanggup berdiri dan sejauh mana suara kita mampi pergi. sekiranya hanya sekadar dalam lingkupan sempadan negara, fikirkahlah.

dunia sekarang bukan dunia siapa kuat secara lahiriah, tetapi dunia sekarang dunia siapa kuat dari segi ilmu dan emosi. sekarang bukan masanya untuk kita tunjukkan siapa yang punya banyak belang tetapi sekarang adalah masanya untuk kita tunjukkan siapa yang pandai menggunakan belangnya. apa yang kita kecapi hari ini bukanlah hanya untuk kegunaan diri sendiri tapi ia juga untuk generasi akan datang. jika sekarang, kita menuding jari menyalahkan generasi sebelumnya kerana kesilapan dan kesalahan mereka, ada baiknya jika kita tuding kembali jari tadi ke muka sendiri. soal diri sendiri, apa yang telah kita lakukan untuk generasi akan datang dan apakah manfaat kita pada generasi sedia ada. jika kita hanya sekadar berdiri megah melaungkan kesalahan orang lain, fikir fikirkanlah. dengan izin tuhan dan uasaha dari generasi yang lepas, hari ini kita dapat melihat bumi malaysia. jangan disebabkan usaha dan lelah kita, kita hilangkan semuanya. janganlah sampai kita menjadi peminjam kepada barang kepunyaan kita. kembalikan sifat nasionalime kedalam hati kita. berjuanglah untuk negara, agama, bangsa dan keluarga.

are we on the right track...if not, how can we tell?

2006-03-27T00:05:00.000+11:00

while living remotely from my home country, i try my best to keep myself updated with the current issue's in malaysia. sad to know that currently, almost all malaysians who consume petrol and diesel for daily uses need to pay high price for it now. while this is happening, i try to figure out why it happened. according to my little knowledge, the price of oil in the world market according to www.oilegypt.com are as below:

while this is happening to most country in the world, malaysia can't be excluded from it eventhough we are known as one of the natural gas exporter to the world. to most malaysians i believe, anger and dissappoinment is building up inside them due to this and they are looking for a reasonable explanation from the government. supposedly, i believe that there is no short term solution for this matter but at the same time i do believe that eventually, we will reach to a level where the suffering caused by this unfairness is at its minimum level. while government is trying their best to improve the situation, a group of people which i believe does not represent the whole nation, are making this issue as a reason for them to stir the anger and hatred between the people and the government. i can say that i get confused and disappointed as i read the news about people making demonstration every week in order to show their disappointment towards the government about this matter. yes, it is unfair for the government to increase the price without early notice to the people but to be fair is hard and this will fall into another category. fairness is a subjective topic depending on which level you stand on and i would like not to say anything about it. im not saying that i support the action taken by the government regarding this issue, but what im trying to understand now is why the government did it in the first place and secondly, how should the people react to it in a correct way. i believe that everyone understand well enough that every move or action taken by the government, pleasant or unpleasant, will generate reaction from the people and it is an inevitable process. at this moment, im still looking for the closest and the best answer that can satisfy my question. and to add the heat, i welcome anyone to share their point of view regarding this matter and let it be a good debate.

while i have a lot of thing that i would like to express here, i believe i should stop now before i go to far. i have a lot of reading and notes that i need to cover for my studies so therefore, i will excuse myself now. i will save what i want to say today for the next entry. ta.

p/s: we live under the same sky, we speak different languages, we walk on a different soil, we believe that happiness is important but one thing for sure...we come from the same species where we fight each other for survival...and to our species, survival means power...and power make us greedy...and that is the worst part of it...

here we go again...

2006-03-22T16:31:00.000+11:00

alrighty, uni starts again...woohoo...and this year, i have the same resolutions, same aims and same target as a student but, will i ever achieve one of it????

hard to answer but one thing for sure, i will try my best no matter what...well, lately my priority in life have shift from running club or societies to work, yes W-O-R-K...its hard life down here...although i have two clubs under my name at the moment, i hope i will be able to organise them good enough this year...

okie dokie, enough crap...i need to go now and meet up with my friend to help him sort out his computer...hmmm, its been ages from the last time i help people with their computer...well, at least i will be able to use my skill before it gets to rusty...alright people...yesterday Australians celebrate "Harmony Day" (well, not everyone practically)...but to me i celebrate it everyday, each single hour and minute...thus, come and join me...be part of it...alrighty, have a g'day mate.

p/s: 21st March every year, Harmony Day is celebrated in Australia. Lets make it as a world celebration instead of only in Australia...well, be positive and be supportive no matter what races you come from, no matter what religious you belief in and no matter what nationality you carries with...

pencarian tanpa noktah...

2006-02-27T15:27:00.000+11:00

apa yang aku mahukan dalam hidup ini,
yang dicari menghilangkan diri,
yang dipohon masih dinanti,
yang pasti tetap pasti...

tetapi makin jauh langkah ini,
makin gundah hatinya,
tidak keruan tapi yakin,
bahawa yang dicari ada dihadapan...

satu persatu diredah,
sehelai demi sehelai diselak,
yang dijumpa hanya bayangan,
diri yang berterbangan...

akan tetapi lelah bukan penghalang,
kematu bukan alasan,
alah bisa tegal biasa,
hanya satu yang bererti iaitu hati yang bersih...

p/s:i start my uni today. i had my clinical psychology class this morning. intresting enough to make me smile by myself. anyway, i had a long day today trying to findout whats wrong with my computer. hate it when you really need them, they turn against you. i almost wanted to smash my computer to the wall. anyway, its done now and im heading home to get some sleep. i'll be working tonight. anyway,lets roll the dough tonight, mate....

andai kata...(2)

2006-02-08T15:31:00.000+11:00

andaikata hidup ini,
diberitahu dimana penghujungnya,
agak-agaknya apa yang akan berlaku,
tanpa diberitahu manusia sudah gila,
tanpa diberitahu manusia sudah tamak,
tanpa diberitahu manusia sudah sengsara,
apa perlu dikhabarkan penhujungnya...

disebalik rahsia ini,
kita masih mencari,
apa tujuan kita disini,
dan,
apakah misi kita,
sehingga saat itu,
kitalah makhluk diatas nama manusia,
makhluk yang bernyawa...

p/s:human never failed to realise the important of understanding why we are here...

can i share this with you guys???

2006-02-08T12:13:00.000+11:00

i received this from a friend through one of my email. it made me laugh for a second but not as loud as usual. come on people, read it. if you laugh, drop a smiley face at the comment section or on my tag board. go on and read.

Two nuns went out of their convent to sell cookies. One is known as
Sister Mathematical and the other as Sister Logical. It is getting dark and they are still far away from the convent.

Sister Logical: Have you noticed that a man has been following us for
the past half-hour?

Sister Mathematical: Yes, I wonder what he wants.

Sister Logical: It's logical. He wants to rape us.

Sister Mathematical: Oh, no! At this rate he will reach us in 15 minutes at the most. What can we do?

Sister Logical: The only logical thing to do of course is to walk faster.

Sister Mathematical: It's not working.

Sister Logical: Of course it's not working. The man did the only logical thing. He started to walk faster too.

Sister Mathematical: So, what shall we do? At this rate he will reach us in one minute.

Sister Logical: The only logical thing we can do is split. You go that way and I'll go the this way. He cannot follows us both.

So the man decided to follow Sister Logical.

Sister Mathematical arrives at the convent and is worried what has happened to Sister Logical.

Then, Sister Logical arrives.

Sister Mathematical: Sister Logical! Thank God you are here! Tell me what happened!

Sister Logical: The only logical thing happened. The man couldn't follow us both, so he followed me.

Sister Mathematical: Yes, yes! But what happened then?

Sister Logical: The only logical thing happened. I started to run as fast as I could and he started to run as fast as he could.

Sister Mathematical: And?

Sister Logical: The only logical thing happened. He reached me.

Sister Mathematical: Oh, dear! What did you do?

Sister Logical: The only logical thing to do. I lifted my dress up.

Sister Mathematical: Oh, Sister! What did the man do?

Sister Logical: The only logical thing to do. He pulled down his pants.

Sister Mathematical: Oh, no! What happened then?

Sister Logical: Isn't it logical, Sister? A nun with her dress up can run faster than a man with his pants down.

Don't be that much enthusiastic be cool!!!!

well, what do you think...arent you laughing? if yes, than it is a good sign thus, leave some smiley face and if not, my question is, what happened? my suggestion is, read it again and if it still cant even make you giggle, then you better go and get consult. probably there is something wrong with you but i hope not. cheers.

p/s: being humorous is a one big thing that not many of us can handle it...not even me, sometimes...

andai kata...

2006-02-03T16:54:00.000+11:00

untuk apa kita disini...
untuk siapa kita disini...
untuk, demi untuk...
hari, demi hari...
sampai satu destinasi...
kita semua akan kembali...
mengadap Ilahi.

to this date, i found out that probably the journey of human's life is similar to a life of a mouse who's going through a big maze, finding his/her way out and eventually, reach the exit. but one thing that the mouse will never realise is, through out his/her long journey looking for the exit, there is someone out there who will always, constantly watching his/her moves. hmmmm...

Taken from internet article, prepared by Prof. Dr. Omar Hassan Kasule Sr, i would like to end my entry with a lines of words from his work as my closing.:
Human behavior in the default state of fitra will be perfect. The human has both the good and bad drives. In the natural state the good will dominate over the bad. However humans do not always live in a natural state. Their upbringing and environment affects the balance between the bad and the good. The environment can suppress or reinforce either the bad or the bad.

p/s:the number is increasing but it will never stop me from going forward...thank God for all the time and space given to me. May other's benefit from me as how i benefit from them...

a mutual understanding as what i thought...

2006-01-27T11:28:00.000+11:00

what a pain-in-the-ass to find out someone that you know turn against you. while walking back from city, i was shocked to see hobart, my favorite place was covered with thick haze. probably it is due to the non-stop-bushfire that still happening in our closest neighborhood territories, victoria. i hope the bushfire will end soon and i would like to express my condolence to the family members of a victorian firefighter who died while performing his duties early this week in the Strathbogie Ranges, north of Yea, in Victoria. and a big applause to all tasmanian firefighters who went to melbourne yesterday to assist victorian firefighter in combating the bushfires.

but anyway, as i walk home few things bothered me, envying the peaceableness that im trying to enjoy while walking. its about trust, and to me it is about mutual understanding that you have between you and your closest person eventhough you never say directly to them "I trust you". in order to face the consequences for trusting someone is a huge sacrifice. i never thought that the person who i trust almost my entire life will leak out my secret to their family member. while this mutual understanding is what i still grip on before, now i can see that the thing is slipping from my hand and it's falling. i would rather jump together with that trust but as i value it, it does not bring any good cause to me rather than pain. yeah, the next question that i will ask myself is "who can i trust after this?" would it be a person or someone who we cant see with our naked eye. i was reading this article few days ago, just to get a better understanding on how do we (i.e the human) interpret trust. in his article, Ronn Elmore, Psy.D. (Feb 2002) said, " Doling out your trust before it's earned is often a recipe for disaster."

Im not sure whether to agree with him or not but its not about to agree or to disagree that concern me. what concern me is, to what degree should we trust others? even i can say that i never trust my family member as my past experience with them has taken away the "precious thing". who are we to judge others when we could not even trust them. while all this questions keep on pressuring me, i still cant figure out how should i deal with this person who leak out my personal story to his family member. i know i should be sincere, honest, take it positively and try to be calm with him. but through my observation, many of us even me sometimes, when we are under pressure or when we are in the middle of a problem, we get panicked and start doing something stupid. most of us actually have the skilled and capable handling this kind of problem, but yeah tell me which doctor can cure himself when they get sick. even a barber went to see another barber to get his hair cut.

In one of Imam Ghazali's famous written book, Ihya Ulum-Id-Din or The Revival of the Religions Sciences, he wrote,

"So it appears that for every affair there are secret and open matters. It is now open to you to observe both the secret and open matters or to observe either of them."

thus now, i'll let myself settle down and try to value the experience before i make my next moves. never cross in my mind to be so judgmental but as i learned through the hard way, our life is not in our own hand and every single thing that we witnessed everyday is beyond our control. not to say that i take things that happened in everyday life for granted but as i go further, i realise on how small i am compare to this big world or even the entire universe. therefore, at this moment, i'll say that i'll let time decide when it should happen. to all the people out there, have a good friday and have a nice weekend. cheers.

p/s:to value an object can be hard and complex but it is less riskier than to value our own personal experince...so let it be as how it should be...at the end of the day, it is there for you to learn about life...or else we won't learn...

the power of imagination...

2006-01-23T00:01:00.000+11:00

i was shocked to find out that my another friend is leaving for good...for the past 60-something days, i have witnessed enough people leaving...one thing that i''ve been experiencing through out my entire life, non-stop. while i was busy watching movie on SBS, my friend called...to my suprise, asking me on how to check how many credit balance he have on his mobile...i was wondering for a while about it...not sure whether to answer his question honestly or the other way round. soon, i realise that the question have nothing to do with what he is going to tell me. friend, friend...always full of suprise. hmmmm, so there you go. one to go and im not sure how many will come. to stop them from going, will automatically higlight my selfishness attitude, therefore what im going to do now is wish them the best of luck in whatever they do and may you guys reach the destination that you guys have been dreaming for so long. i have nothing to give for remembrance, just a little bit of advise:

"through the dark tunnel we walk together to find the way out of it. it seems that you reach first. thus, now you are free to go. never think about the tunnel again or else it will pull you in for the second time. the question on whether we will meet again is beyond our limit. therefore, keep walking and work for the best. happiness is too subjective to be define and therefore, define you own happiness."

p/s:we see people move forward, we think we are left behind...are we???

words...

2006-01-13T12:28:00.000+11:00

the quest will not stop...the far i go, the more i will know...if i hurt someone feeling, it never cross in my mind to behave in that way...if i leave something behind, take it and do not returned it back to me...time is what i have and that is the only thing i could gamble for...if i fail to win the game, let it be...if i win, come and see me to get your share back...what will happen to a gambler who gamble his own life...no one knows even the gambler...this is what i learned from a friend:

words that come from the heart will go to the heart,
words that come from the mouth will only enter the ears and disappear...

the question of "Are you ready for it?" or "Are you sure you want to do it?" is what i consider as a question of selfisness...who are we to question someone decision when we are not in their shoes...we always think that we are too good for others to learn from when, we could not even know what will happen to us the next day...even if we have experienced it, it does not give us the right or the power or the permission to decide for others...some of us get confuse between giving out an advice and help others making their decision (which to me is a wrong thing to do)...as someone who are not in the person shoes, the best thing that we could do is to listen and to give appropriate advice (if they ask for it) and not to-become the decision-maker...sad and sad and sad...but thats what we see in real life...im not sure if its to ideally but why cant we respect someone decision and be there when they in trouble after not listening to our advice earlier...selfishness is bad but if we are truly sincere, we will never question someone decision even if we know it will turn up bad for us and not for them......

p/s:life is what we get, the end result will vary from one person to another person...never envy for what i have and never regret for what you get...what we have now is temporary...work the best out of it...share it while you can...keep it to yourself if its bad for others...

antara minyak dan air...

2005-12-22T18:27:00.000+11:00

sering kali ketika aku bersendiri, aku bertanya "Kemanadan dan dimana akan aku berakhir? Apa perjalanan aku hanya akan berakhir apabila mataku tertutup rapat tanpa boleh dibuka lagi?". Persoalan demi persoalan timbul. Sedang aku berperang dengan dengan diri sendiri, seorang sahabat aku pula sedang sibuk "berjudi". Berjudi dengan masa hadapan. Memang manusia dilahirkan untuk berjudi, berjudi didalam apa sahaja tidak kira dengan masa, tempat, kehidupan dan judi adalah lebih sinonim apabila dikaitkan dengan duit. Sahabat aku sedang berjudi dimana bukan duit atau harta yang dipertaruhkan, tetapi diri sendiri. Tidak menjadi masalah jika hidup ini tidak melibatkan manusia lain yang dipanggil ibu, bapa, adik beradik atau sanak saudara. Berjudilah semahunya tetapi ingat bahawa pertaruhan yang tidak membawa sebarang kemanangan fizikal bukanlah bermakna kita kalah sekalahnya. tetapi kita perlu ingat bahawa, dari sudut lain kita telah menang. manang didalam mencari pengalaman, mencari ilmu dan lebih baik dikatakan menang di dalam memperbaiki diri sendiri.

aku pernah berkata kepada seorang sahabat bahawa hidup kita umpama seorang pengemis yang mengutip apa sahaja yang dijumpainya disepanjang perjalanan pulang ke tempat yang dipanggil "rumah". guni yang dikendong akan semakin berat dan bahu yang mengendongnya akan terasa sakit kerana segala "sampah" atau "harta" yang dianggap berharga akan terus dikutip sehinggalah pengemis tadi sampai ke tempat yang ingin ditujuinya. tatkala si pengemis tadi memunggah guni yang dibawa, barulah si pengemis tahu bahawa apa yang telah dikendongnya di sepanjang perjalanan pulang. mungkin banyak "sampah" dari "harta" atau sebaliknya atau sama banyak kuantitinya. tetapi yang paling penting buat si pengemis ialah, perjalanan yang telah dilaluinya kerana perjalanan itu yang membuatkan dia sedar bahawa jalan yang mana banyak "sampah" dan patut dielakkan dan jalan yang mana banyak "harta" dan patut disinggah olehnya setiap hari. dan kehidupan si pengemis ini akan sentiasa berubah setiap hari kerana dia akan cuba mencari jalan yang lain dari hari sebelumnya.

kita didunia ini umpama seorang pengemis yang mengemis. tiada yang istemewa antara kita dengan manusia yang lain dan akhirnya kita semua akan menuju ke destinasi yang sama. tetapi pengalaman yang dikutip disepanjang perjalanan hiduplah yang akan membezakan kita, tidak kiralah samada pengalaman itu berupa "sampah" atau "harta". mungkin pengalaman kita berbeda dari manusia lain, tetap perlu kita menerimanya dan bersyukur dengna apa yang telah diperolehi. tidak mudah untuk seorang manusia untuk mengutip kesemua benda yang dijumpainya kerana kudrat seorang manusia berbeda antara satu sama lain. dalam waktu yang sama, kita perlu sedar bahawa tidak banyak pengemis yang sanggup memikul atau mengendong guni pengemis lain melainkan ada minat yang tersirat. dan tidak pula akan seorang pengemis memberitahu pengemis lain jalan mana yang patut dicubainya melainkan ia mahu menganiaya. diantara kesemua keburukan,ada kebaikkan disebaliknya untuk dialami oleh semua pengemis. hanya sabar, ikhlas dan redha akan membantu pengemis tadi sedar yang mana "sampah" dan yang mana "harta". malah pengemis tadi akan tahu apa yang patut dilakukan dengan "samapah" dan "harta" yang telah diperolehi. ada "sampah" yang boleh dikitar semula dan ada "harta" yang hanya akan membawa mudarat.

sebagai seorang sahabat, apa yang mampu aku lakukan telah aku lakukan dan barangkali ia tidak cukup untuk memenuhi kehandak seorang manusia lain. sebagai seorang sahabat, untuk melihat kejatuhan atau manjadi saksi kepada kekalahan perjudian sahabat lain adalah perit. oleh itu, bersabar dan terus bersabar dan berdoalah agar diberikan petunjuk. seperti apa yang telah aku terima sebagai satu nasihat dari seorang kawan,

"Barangkali apa yang kita anggap terbaik untuk diri kita adalah bukan yang terbaik untuk diri kita dan barangkali apa yang kita anggap tidak terbaik untuk diri kita adalah yang terbaik sebenarnya. Hanya tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita."

p/s: my mom used to quote my grandad when she want us to understand why we must go to school. "There is no other possesion that i can inherit to you except knowledge. So go to school and and study." So until now, my mom always ask us to study, learn about anything no matter what happen and no matter where you go.

adil atau tidak adil...

2005-12-16T12:27:00.000+11:00

sering kali kita bertanya, siapakah yang layak menjawab persoalan "siapa yang adil?" atau "mengapa seseorang berlaku tidak adil kepada manusia yang lain?". apa persolan ini akan terjawab jika seseorang menawarkan diri dan mendefinasikan apa itu adil. apa akan definasi ini akan diterima pakai oleh semua orang amnya. aku bertanyakan soalan ini kepada seorang sahabat dan aku hampir pasti jawapan yang diberikan adalah jawapan yang aku kira patut diterima oleh semua orang.

"Adil itu hanya Allah yang tahu. Sukar untuk seorang manusia mendefinasikan adil itu kerana perbedaan umur, peringkat pemahaman dan lain-lain faktor".

tetapi aku pasti bahawa, definasi ini akan ditolak oleh sesetengah pihak dan sukar untuk mereka terima bahawa inilah jawapan kepada persoalan adil itu. pada pendapat aku, adil itu adalah sesuatu yang sukar untuk diperolehi dan difahami kewujudannya. aku pernah diajarkan bahawa takrifan adil itu ialah

"meletakkan sesuatu itu pada tempatnya".

hampir pasti jawapan ini benar tetapi persolan lain pula timbul di dalam kotak fikiran aku. apa itu "tempatnya" dan bagaimanakah untuk kita tahu dimana "tempatnya".mungkin persoalan ini tiada penghujungnya dan yang lebih pasti ialah kita tidak berada pada tempat yang tepat untuk mendefinasikan apa itu adil dan dengan apa keadilan itu dapat ditegakkan. apa yang mampu seorang manusia lakukan ialah, bukannya cuba menegakkan keadilan atau mencari erti sebenar apa itu adil. tetapi apa yang aku rasa patut kita lakukan ialah membuat apa perkara sekalipun dengan ikhlas. hanya dengan keikhlasan, keadilan dapat dilihat dan digilap. malah, dengan keikhlasan bukan sahaja keadilan itu dapat diperlihatkan, malah kebenaran juga akan ditunjukkan. di dalam perjalanan mencari erti dan memahami apa itu keihklasan, aku sedar bahawa banyak ilmu lain yang aku berjaya kutip disepanjang perjalanan itu. mungkin satu hari akan aku kongsikan pengalaman ini dengan sesiapa sahaja yang ingin mengajar aku untuk menjadi manusia yang ikhlas.

p/s: we do things without a reason. but once we completed doing it, it become a reason to us on why we do it.

somewhere but i can't remember when and who said it...

2005-12-13T12:58:00.000+11:00

i was cleaning up some space in my room when i discovered a piece of A4 paper with writings on it. i think i know who the owner of the handwriting and after reading what he wrote, i know where he get it. but that is not the case here. what i will post today is something that i should share with everyone. sorry for not being able to include the name of the person who said it and i feel bad about it. i hope it will make sense to you guys when you read it.

"Negotiation is the art of getting what you want from someone who has the power to give it to you."

"The greater frustration in life is to do a perfect job on a wrong thing."

p/s: a piece of paper will have a value when you have something printed on it, no matter what it is as long as you think it is valuable.

lets take a walk....a long walk with no endings...

2005-12-10T04:50:00.000+11:00

"Sanity is a madness put to good uses."
- George Santayana (1863-1952)

"A poem is never finished, only abandoned."
- Paul Valery (1871-1945)

"Make everything as simple as possible, but not simpler."
- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

"It is dangerous to be sincere unless you are also stupid."
- George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950)

"Bigamy is having one wife too many. Monogamy is the same."
- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

p/s: thanks Prof. for all the words...

"to bed" or "too bad"....hmmmmm....

2005-12-10T04:00:00.000+11:00

i'm suppose to be sleeping at the moment but as usual, the excitement is making me less sleepy and thanks to it, it will be a long day for me tomorrow or i can say "today"...

i'll be in launnie tonight and will travel to the central part of tassie tomorrow. will be do some bushwalking this weekend in cradle mountain and expected to be in the east cost of tassie the next day. i'm not sure what will happen to me for the next 72 hours. i hope the weather will permit us to do more bushwalk instead of bush-mobile. i just could not figure out at the moment where i'll be sleeping for the next two night. probably the back seat will be the best place to crash in instead of me paying AUD 25 for a night in backpacker. its not that i want to be an ungenerous person, but i'm trying my best to minimise my expenses through this journey and therefore i presume that i will have a nice place to crash in tomorrow.

wokie dokie people. i think i better force myself to get some sleep before i start my journey today. will be in the bush for a while. have a good weekend guys. ta.

p/s:i wish you are in launnie tomorrow, so we can go out and get ourself updated while yum cha in the town. anyway, i hope you have a good weekend up there in sydney ya...

sometimes...

2005-12-06T18:56:00.000+11:00

sometimes,
we think we are the best,
we are the good ones,
we are undefeated...

sometimes,
we show people our pride,
we talk rubbish,
we declare our own foolishness...

sometimes,
people teach us who we are,
person we care turn their back on us,
stab behind us...

sometimes,
we love people who praise us,
we hate people who critique us,
we do not know who speak the truth...

sometimes,
we hate ourself,
we want to be like others,
never realise how good we are...

none of the times,
we try to be better,
try to appreciate life given,
give out our love to everyone and make them happy...

the warrior and the dragon...

2005-12-02T13:14:00.000+11:00

i'm fighting an invisible dragon...
wish i can see it...
but i'm afraid the dragon is myself...
its either i get hurts or the dragon die...
at the end of the day, its all about me myself...

p/s:a warrior who is brave enough to combat the dragon with his small sword...but he is equip with big courage...will need a lot energy and must not give up at all.

mutation...

2005-12-02T01:24:00.000+11:00

i was there with few others discussing about how do we understand and how can we defined success. it was an intresting topic and to find that out of 10 people who were there, none of them have any similarities in understanding the meaning of success. this includes people who said nothing at all but yeah, i still think it is something that i need to appreciate. some where in the middle of the discussion, my mom rang and i excused myself from the session. while talking to mom, some part of my brain was working unconsciously, finding way to define what is success.

after putting down the phone, soon i realised that success is about surviving. if you survive in what ever you do, and you fully utilised all the skills and opportunity provided around you, you are a successful person but if you do not survive in doing it, it does not mean that you have failed to survive but actually you have not found the right way of doing things. to be called a failure, i would say that i agreed with what one of my friend said about being a failure,

"you failed once you give up doing it and you stop yourself from continue doing it."

by all means, my definition does not represent the right definition of success but if we put the word survival in general which everyone have the power to define it according to their taste that they like, im sure it mean something.

later i said to everyone, "if we put ourself as a mutant, we actually have the power to overcome all barriers. if we try to mutate ourself by knowing the look and the character of the barrier, it would be the simplest thing to do in getting over it, the barrier and it would be easy for us to understand the consequence of our action due to it and to accept it positively later on."

wish i had pen that time to jot this down as a remembrance to myself...

p/s: "Virus: A microorganism smaller than a bacteria, which cannot grow or reproduce apart from a living cell. A virus invades living cells and uses their chemical machinery to keep itself alive and to replicate itself. It may reproduce with fidelity or with errors (mutations)-this ability to mutate is responsible for the ability of some viruses to change slightly in each infected person, making treatment more difficult."
taken from http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=5997

run...

2005-12-01T16:40:00.000+11:00

when you hold something,
you believe it is yours,

when you get something,
you believe someone remember you,

when you possess a treasure,
you believe it will never leave you,

when you fight for something,
you want it to be yours,

when you look for something,
you know you will find it,

but when you lose something,
you lose everything,
unless you are strong...

p/s:for the past 48 hours, so many things happened. i get confused and i start to ask myself few question with no answer. you know that when someone promised you with something, you really want it to happen. but after a bad night, i realised that no matter how sure you are about what you have now, one day it will leave you. the only thing that will always remind us about it is the time we when lost it. i do not wish this to happen but i hope the fog will be blow away by a strong wind...soon.

since the last time we met...

2005-11-27T21:00:00.000+11:00

time,
who control them,
will there be enough time...

distance,
is it measureable,
can we mirror it...

truth,
who knows about it,
who dare to challenge it...

anger,
hot as fire,
can you hold it...

happiness,
like sugar,
will disappear without trace...

time, distance,truth, anger and happiness,
is it real,
search for it before they discover you...

p/s:will time permit me to meet with them again...

the stone...

2005-11-24T23:08:00.000+11:00

we were hiking up mount wellinton in the morning when this conversation happened between me and my freind. he asked me whether for what he is doing now, is he the right person to do it or is it he is doing the wrong thing.

to answer his question, it came across to my mind not to answer it in a normal order and make it something different. i told him that there is stone in a stream where from time to time no matter what happen the stone will always be there, firm and solid. at the begining of the stone life, it is ugly, crooked and doesn't have any shape. but as time past by, the stone get smoother and get rounder thanks to the water flow that flow around it everyday. the water flow could be slow and gentle, or maybe sometimes dirty, muddy, or maybe sometimes could be big and rapid. but all this will not move the stone even an inch and on top of that it helps the stone to get the shape that the stone should get. i told him that he should consider himself as the stone and the stream that flows everyday as the bigger society or the peoples who live around him and they are the medium of changes. through what he had and will experience later in life by dealing with the society or the peoples, no matter bad or good, sad or happy, it will eventually turn him into a better and wise person. the only obstacle that he need to consider is time and patient which is hard to get.

although this conversation doesn't really end up in a better way due to certain problem that occurs while we were hiking, it really make me think. it make me realised that in life, it is about realising things that happened to us everyday as part of our life experience. nothing more we could or should ask for but what we should do is to treasure it as how it should be treasured. make less complain and appreciate more. to my friends, to be a good person, nothing in life should make you feel disappointed but any disappointment that happened should be turned into a precious moments.

p/s:any good deeds that we do to others is not because we want to do it but it is because others deserve it from us...

so what happen next...

2005-11-22T23:29:00.000+11:00

to be acknowledge as a friend will consume a length of time which whenever someone look for it, it will not be visible...spend the time given for something that will benefit both...eventually, the end result will lead into a conclusion that friend is just a word that we use to describe a relationship. what lies behind it is something that not all of us can see and touch it. i'd encounter few stages where friend is just a word to describe the action of having someone with me to laugh and to joke with. the time that i have spend for the last 17 years make me realise that in my life, i'd spend most of it with stranger which later on we name it as friends...

p/s:when we have friends, we look forward to be remembered by them...but why must they remember you when you dont remember them. sometimes we feel sad when someone forgot about our existence after they left us, but life goes on and the circle will keep on rolling........

another one that i want to share...

2005-11-22T02:40:00.000+11:00

"To-day, man's opportunity to learn is almost unlimited, but an individual's capacity to learn has varying limitations."

Mahathir Mohamad, The Malay Dilemma 1970

realising what is right...

2005-11-22T02:17:00.000+11:00

sometimes we often think that we will have time to correct all our mistakes, done previously. how often do we think that the time will never be there for us to correct our mistakes if we could not be there for it. what comes tomorrow is what we shall see it as a gift. the past two days really taught me how to differentiate whom shall i consider as a friend, whom shall i consider as an enemy and whom shall i avoid when it comes to share the prizes that i win. never take for granted for what ever you witnessed in your daily life as it could be a valuable experience for the future. shall i say, "experience is a good teacher. once you master the art of respecting it, you know what you can do with the knowledge that you gain from it."

p/s:shall i say now,"lets hit the road and see what we can find at the end of it"...

when we look carefully...

2005-11-22T01:39:00.000+11:00

"A sting from an insect can be as good a killer as an atom bomb. And a man who survives is the man who knows how to avoid danger. The man who can avoid all danger must be necessity be cunning and resourceful. The careless and the stupid will fall along the way."

- Mahathir Mohamad, The Malay Dilemma 1970

p/s:How true can it be when a person commit a mistake, they admit. One shall realise when to stop and when to proceed with their actions when they smell something is not right about it. some will consider, to learn is to make mistake, but how far can we go is my question. i never question people action, but i will keep on observing till it reach a point where i can make a conclusion on why it happen and how does it happen. to be truthful, i'm a person who rarely say good things when it comes to commenting peoples action but as far as i know, i never fake what i say about it. sincere and honest is a two different thing but it will benefit the person who knows how to differentiate both of them.

"The ego and thinking" by de Bono...

2005-11-16T17:47:00.000+11:00

Thinking is often regarded as an extension of the ego. Clever children in school base their egos on being clever and on being right all the time. They dislike group work because they cannot then show the rest of the class where the good idea originated. When the ego and thinking are treated as the same thing there is a reluctance to be wrong and a need to defend a point of view rather than to explore the situation. A person should be able to treat his thinking much as a tennis player treats his strokes: he should be able to walk off the court complaining that his backhand was not working very well on that occasion or that it required more practice.

This new meta-system is very much in favour of the self, but a self that is based on a proper sense of dignity, not on an inflated ego. A person who dare not admit he is wrong inflates his ego but weakens his self.

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Passage taken from: "The Happiness Purpose," by Edward de Bono, ISBN 0851171257 Copyright © European Music Ltd., 1977

p/s: this was taken from http://www.edwarddebono.com/PassageDetail.php?passage_id=88&, while i was sailing through the sea of information, looking for the right fish for dinner...

what ever happen today is for tomorrow...

2005-11-15T04:23:00.000+11:00

mungkin hidup ini memerlukan perubahan yang seiring dengan jalan yang dipilih. perubahan yang bagaimanakah mampu memberikan kesan atau impak yang nyata pada setiap individu. adakah sekadar perubahan luaran yang menjadi kayu ukuran atau perubahan dalaman yang ingin ditonjolkan. setiap sesuatu yang berlaku akan menimbulkan persoalan dan tanda tanya yang mana jawapan yang akan diterima ada kemungkinan bukan lah jawapan yang ingin kita dengar. demi kerana ingin tahu, kita tetap menanyakan soalan itu sehingga kita lupa bahawa setiap yang berlaku adalah diluar bidang kuasa seorang manusia. tetapi adakah berbaloi jika kita hanya menerima apa yang berlaku tanpa mempersoalkan tujuan dan matlamat kenapa ia berlaku.

aku sering mati di tengah jalan persoalan apabila sesuatu yang berlaku adalah diluar jangkaan dan ia tidak seperti yang aku harapkan. tetapi hati ini sering ditenangkan apabila ia dapat menerima hakikat bahawa setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya. persoalan demi persoalan timbul setial kali aku bersendirian. jika boleh, hendak saja aku luahkan apa yang terbuku di hati ini. baik tentang kehidupan diriku dan masyarakat sekeliling mahupun tentang pergolakan dunia. otak ini tidak pernah berhenti berfikir tetapi hati ini sedih kerana apa yang difikirkan menjadi sia-sia apabila ia hanya sekadar buat tatapan diri sendiri. ilmu dan pengetahuan adalah untuk dikongsi tetapi perlu ada caranya. itulah sedang aku cari. pencarian bagaimana untuk berkongsi ilmu dan pengetahuan yang aku ada dengan teman-teman yang lain.

mungkin aku perlu berjalan lebih jauh di dalam usaha mengenal diri sendiri dan memperbaiki segala yang kurang. mungkin semuanya bermula dari hari ini....insyallah.

p/s: the quest of finding "who i am" will be difficult but the experience is something that we will treasure for the rest of our life...

"tickling the tiger"...

2005-11-15T01:55:00.000+11:00

to tickle an angry tiger will only increases the tiger anger...to me, the action of tickling the tiger is not important but to experience the thrills of avoiding the tiger "hand swing" with the claws is at its maximum stretch from reaching my face is what i'm looking for.

to my dear friend, i wish you all the best in what ever you do and i hope everything will be fine for you in sydney. let nothing stop you from achieving your goal. thanks for everything that we had shared together during those periods. had i done wrong to you consciously or unconsciously, my sincere apologies for it and for all the good things, keep it as a gift from me that will always make you smile...

p/s:no words can describe an action...even a good story teller can only help us imagining it and make us believe that it is real...

who we are...

2005-11-10T23:43:00.000+11:00

when we walk,
we look forward to reach a point,

when we talk,
we look forward to end it soon,

when we run,
we want to be the first,

when we hide,
we want to be discover,

when we swim,
we want to be the best,

when we think,
we want to be critical,

when we sleep,
we want to dream a beautiful dream,

when we eat,
we want to eat the best food ever,

but when we die,
what we want will never be what we want it to be...

p/s:lately, i started to get used to say this sentence to my friends "to be frank, we are living in a realistic world and not an idealistic world"...but how far can we accept this will be the ruler of our life...sad to see when some of my friends try so hard to be someone...someone who they never wished to be with the rest of their life...everyday, when we wake up and open our eyes, new chapter of our life will be translated in action, words, feelings and many more...

"The man who goes alone can start today; but he who travels with another must wait till that other is ready."
- Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)

Thursday, 1st Syawal 1426...

2005-11-03T11:57:00.000+11:00

i would like to take this opportunity to wish my beloved family (sorry for not being able to join you guys for the second time), relatives, friends and acquaintances, near and far and no matter where you are;

Eid Mubarak, or Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

for all the words that might have hurts, for all the jokes that turned sour and for everything said or done wrong, from the bottom of my heart, i seek for an apology from everyone. eventhough time and distance divide us, i hope you guys will enjoy the eid as it should. nothing can make me happy rather than seing everyone that i loved happy. to all my companion in hobart, we'll be having a big gathering once everyone complete their exams and for those who are leaving hobart for holiday or for good, take care and good luck for your future life. and for those who will sit for their exams next week, best wishes and good luck. thats all i guess...and again, Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim brothers and sisters all around the world. lets forget all the dispute and make this year syawal a memorable month for all of us.

p/s: food for thought;

Forgiveness is important for two reasons:

1. Very importantly, for the after-life or the life hereafter. One forgives to seek forgiveness. Seeking forgiveness is a sign of humility and forgiving others is a sign of magnanimity.
2. Seeking forgiveness and forgiving others brings happiness in the worldly life - it's a psychological thing. In addition, forgiving improves relations with people by bringing good reputation and respect.

'Oqbah Ibn 'Amer reported that the Messenger of Allah said:
"you shall keep relationship with one who cut it off from you, you shall give one who disappointed you, and you shall pardon on who oppressed you"
- AL-HADIS, op.cit. #192w, p548-

(Forgiveness, by Dr. M. Amir Ali, Ph.D.) http://www.iiie.net/Articles/Forgiveness.html

I'm half the man I used to be...

2005-11-02T12:14:00.000+11:00

Artist: STONE TEMPLE PILOTS
Album: Thank You
Song Name: Creep

Forward yesterday
Makes me wanna stay
What they said was real
Makes me wanna steal
Livin' under house
Guess I'm livin', I'm a mouse
All's I gots is time
Got no meaning, just a rhyme

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
Well, I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be

Feelin' uninspired
Think I'll start a fire
Everybody run
Bobby's got a gun
Think you're kinda neat
Then she tells me I'm a creep
Friends don't mean a thing
Guess I'll leave it up to me

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to me
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be
This I feel as the dawn
It fades to gray
I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be,
Half the man I used to be

well, i guess this song will remain in my head for couple of days...i found out that, eventualy, no matter how far you go later on in your life...one day you will be sitting down and think back for all the things that you had done in the past...you will be in a state of wonder with what you had done and probably will draw a lot of questions asking yourself on "how did all this happened to me?", "how did i manage to go through it?", "what will happen if i did/didn't take that action?" and at the end of it, my interest is to know how does all this affect others around you and me...hmmmm,some wild thought that fly across my mind in the morning...

p/s: the bass line caught my intention...just want to play it now...

why we do it...but that does not matter to me...

2005-10-27T00:14:00.000+11:00

Your Personality Is

Artisan (SP)

You are both grounded and flexible. You adapt well to new situations.
You are playful and free spirited - but you are also dependable and never flaky.

You don't do well in conservative, stuffy situations.
It's probably very hard for you to keep a normal job or stay in school.

You are always up for fun and adventure. Most people are too boring for you.
You take risks and bend the rules. And if things don't work out, you chock it up to life experience.

In love, you tend to take things quickly - but you have a huge problem with commitment.

At work, you need to make your own rules. You're best suited to be an entrepreneur.

With others, you are animated and physical. You prefer doing something with friends to just hanging out.

As far as your looks go, you tend to be buff and in good shape. Your spend more time on your body than your clothes.

On weekends, you need to keep active. From cooking up a storm to running a 5K, you wear yourself out.

The Three Question Personality Test

i'm sure nothing worry us more than to read what the questionaire will say about us...it is all basically random and the truth is people do it for fun and to "create" what we call smile on their face...nothing serious but it is just a try and error thing...anyway people, i'm starting to miss my fa-mi-ly now...eid is just around the corner...Happy Eid to everyone who will celebrate it on the first week of november...

p/s: friends, nothing in life is more important than youself...the rest is just an add-on flavour...pick and choose...let the sensational taste drive your mood to a level where you and only you could appreciate it...

time as we 'see' it...

2005-10-23T18:32:00.000+11:00

"Research is what I'm doing when I don't know what I'm doing."
- Wernher Von Braun (1912-1977)

simple...

2005-10-20T04:20:00.000+11:00

i have approximately forty-eight-hours before my first paper begin...i'm wondering what will come out for my exam...an advise from my lecturer "Never try to spot a question because it is a dangerous thing to do"...i'm not a deviant but as a normal student, i can't stop myself from doing it...even though i tried so many times not to spot the exam questions...my unconscious mind will always be there to do it for me without charging me any extra cost...anyway, i'm just scrathing here...nothing important...to all my acquaintance out there, if you are preparing yourself for exams...i wish you guys best of luck...and to those who are not doing anything...please, DO NOT DISTURB US!!!...give us some privacy ya...anyway, got to go now as my eyes is getting heavier...cherio.

p/s:it is not official yet but summer is coming...guys, lets grab the camping gear and do some bushwalk...anyone with plans, invite me please....

what make you think?

2005-10-09T02:12:00.000+11:00

have i ever failed...yes and the experienced is painfull...due to certain reason, i'm forced to make a choice and i move on...from one stone to another stone, i jump...but now the next stone is slowly dissapearing from my sight...is there any hope that i will be able to jump on that stone...i'm puzzling myself and the question of how, when and will i decide what is the next best step so that i can proceed with what im doing now is chasing my butt...i've given my unclear answer with a sign of hope and pray for the best...i'm struggling with what i'm doing now and the only solution given to me is go home and do it locally...never mean to dissapoint anyone, or to make other people suffer...i really hope that things will end up with something good so i can proceed with what i'm doing now...money never bother me this much but it seems like i have no other option...either i leave it and let time decide or i silently and blindly walk through the bushes till i find the source of light...for all the hope and the hardship...i wish my application will be granted...i'm not a begger or try to be selfish but the truth is, money can make an honoured person to knee down on the ground and make them cry for the sake of it...

p/s:the pressure is there...the choices is either i go home or someone including me will suffer the consequences due to my action...but as i lay out the plan...one thing that i need to bear in mind...i'm not the decision maker...

when time is ticking away, you know what will happen...

2005-10-07T12:38:00.000+11:00

time will go and never return,
memory remain as the excitement is fading away,

tomorrow become today,
and yesterday become illusion,

from where we come,
which end will we end up in,
will be one big question,
to answer but when,
and how to answer it,
remain unsolved...

p/s: accept no praise, reject no critics...my mind is flying looking for the source of inspiration...

UNESCO Encyclopaedia Article 1.44.3.7 Non-Governmental Organizations

2005-09-23T02:19:00.000+10:00

Introduction

The term non-governmental organization or NGO was not in general currency before the UN was formed. When 132 international NGOs decided to co-operate with each other in 1910, they did so under the label, the Union of International Associations. The League of Nations officially referred to its "liaison with private organizations", while many of these bodies at that time called themselves international institutes, international unions or simply international organizations. The first draft of the UN Charter did not make any mention of maintaining co-operation with private bodies. A variety of groups, mainly but not solely from the USA, lobbied to rectify this at the San Francisco conference, which established the UN in 1945. Not only did they succeed in introducing a provision for strengthening and formalizing the relations with private organizations previously maintained by the League, they also greatly enhanced the UN's role in economic and social issues and upgraded the status of the Economic and Social Council (ECOSOC) to a "principal organ" of the UN. To clarify matters, new terminology was introduced to cover ECOSOC's relationship with two types of international organizations. Under Article 70, "specialized agencies, established by intergovernmental agreement" could "participate without a vote in its deliberations", while under Article 71 "non-governmental organizations" could have "suitable arrangements for consultation". Thus, "specialized agencies" and "NGOs" became technical UN jargon. Unlike much UN jargon, the term, NGO, passed into popular usage, particularly from the early 1970s onwards.

Many diverse types of bodies are now described as being NGOs. There is no generally accepted definition of an NGO and the term carries different connotations in different circumstances. Nevertheless, there are some fundamental features. Clearly an NGO must be independent from the direct control of any government. In addition, there are three other generally accepted characteristics that exclude particular types of bodies from consideration. An NGO will not be constituted as a political party; it will be non-profit-making and it will be not be a criminal group, in particular it will be non-violent. These characteristics apply in general usage, because they match the conditions for recognition by the United Nations. The boundaries can sometimes be blurred: some NGOs may in practice be closely identified with a political party; many NGOs generate income from commercial activities, notably consultancy contracts or sales of publications; and a small number of NGOs may be associated with violent political protests. Nevertheless, an NGO is never constituted as a government bureaucracy, a party, a company, a criminal organization or a guerrilla group. Thus, for this article, an NGO is defined as an independent voluntary association of people acting together on a continuous basis, for some common purpose, other than achieving government office, making money or illegal activities. This basic approach will be elaborated and modified below.

p/s: you can know more if you click the word at the end of this line or the second line...probably you'll learn something from there too...[intro to NGO]

what is the price to be happy...

2005-09-19T00:16:00.000+10:00

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go."
- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

"it is not easy to make people laugh...it is not easy to make people smile...but if i could do it...no matter how hard it is...i will always do it...cherish your life...one day, when there is no turning back in your life...at least you don't regret for what ever had happen..."
- me (1981-present)

my life is so complicated lately...there is so many junction that i came across...so many until it led me to a place where i couldn't decide whether is this the right place where i want to be...the journey continues as i never plan for what might happen next...i hoped that all the bumps and hiccups will help me to understand the reason why i'm here...my journey continues as i walk further without knowing what will happen tomorrow...ta.

p/s:to thinks is to commit...to act is to be responsible...

where do we start...

2005-09-13T20:36:00.000+10:00

sometimes, when we are surrounded by a group of people and we open up our ears as wide as we can...we never know what we will hear...i never enjoy the dinner on that night but this phrase really make me think, afterall...

"when you are around, i'm just a shadow"...

p/s: no words can described my feeling when i first heard this...

"apa melatah itu salah?".......

2005-09-06T13:24:00.000+10:00

agak agaknya, sifat seorang manusia itu berbeda dari yang lain-lain...bagaimana agaknya perlu kita terima sifat melatah ini...secara zahirnya, perbuatan melatah ini adalah sangat berbahaya...mampu membuatkan seseorang membunuh insan yang tidak berdaya...secara batinnya, sifat melatah ini mampu menumbangkan gergasi besar tanpa perlu tenaga manusia...hanya kata-kata yang terucap ketika melatah mampu menghadirkan suasana ribut...terlajak perahu, boleh ditarik balik...terlajak kata, apakan daya....terima seadanya dengan apa yang terjadi...

p/s:to me, sorry is just a word...but the truth lies on the person itself, who said the sorry words...

afterall....

2005-09-04T20:31:00.000+10:00

in life, we should not regret with what had happen,
in life, we learn how to deal with the pain we suffer,
in life, no matter how wonderful life is we know it will end soon,
in life, the puzzle is much complicated,
in life, question come with no answers,
in life, the cycle will continues no matter what,
in life, sad is important to create the mood,
in life, love is exchangeable,
in life, we gamble,
in life, we die.

myself keep on asking why and why and why...i'm sure i'll be able to find the answers...but the age is making me feel uncomfortable and i always think that the time is ticking much faster than it should...as far as i'm concern...my life is so short and the end will be there...

p/s: should we think about life when we does not take it seriously...and where should we put our feet when we wish we can fly freely...

to what extent does independence mean to you...

2005-08-31T12:40:00.000+10:00

to all proud malaysian's out there, Happy 48th Independence Day...no matter who you are, where you are or how you look like...malaysia are proud to have you as their citizens...anyhow, sad to see some of us reluctantly agree with all the development that we have but all praise to Allah who allowed us to experince all the thing that we are having now....

"HAPPY MERDEKA DAY"

"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"
"MERDEKA"

p/s: i'm sad to be away from my country...but the sacrifice is to small compared to the elderly people who fought for the independent of Malaysia...lets pray for the people who died in the cause of it...Al-Fatihah.

how do we see things through our naked eye balls...

2005-08-16T13:39:00.000+10:00

this was given to me by my good friend...and i would like to share it with my other friends who take me as their friend...

i asked allah

i asked for strenght...
and allah gave me difficulties to make me strong.

i asked for wisdom...
and allah gave me problem to solve.

i asked for prosperity...
and allah gave me brain and brawn to work.

i asked for courage...
and allah gave me danger to overcome.

i asked for love...
and allah gave me troubled people to help.

i asked for favour...
and allah gave me opportunities.

i received nothing i wanted...
i received everything i needed!

p/s:maybe the art of "thinking out of the box" should be put in simple way...as simple as it can...as simple as we can...

turning point that we never expect...

2005-08-04T21:44:00.000+10:00

if the road is straight,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
how far will it go.

if the road is full of corners,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
to get stuck in one of the corner.

if the road is wet,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
it get slippery and we crashed.

if the road is steep,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
could we climb it.

if the road is narrow,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
to hit the side walls.

if the road is wide,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
we will start to speed.

and what if there is no road for us to drive on,
the only thing that we are afraid of is,
is there any option for us to go on.

p/s: after a series of bad experience, i've learnt that no matter on what road we are on, it is all about the journey...

back to the original...

2005-07-27T15:12:00.000+10:00

currently i'm in malaysia...try to settle a lot of stuff...last week full of meeting and after all i'm satisfied with the conference...the experince and chance that i get is something that i can't easily...but this week, i need to settle a lot of stuff and my day after today will be different from the previous day...to accept failure is a greatest pressure and i'm still in the process of chewing it and digest it...it's not about just to accept but to live with it...it will be a record where the is no option of deleting or undo...somehow i'm still trying to balance myself and i'm in a process of convincing other people...i hope, by God will i will get what i'm looking for and what i prayed for...so long people, will scratch again once i'm back to Tassie...

p/s:failure is a punishment...but through punishment we learnt how to appreciate life given...

thanks...

2005-07-04T16:52:00.000+10:00

after all, having my cousin to visit me last week was absolutely awesome...when to Crockle Creek with some other guys...camping and bush-walking...and the best part was, plucking oyster and eat it there fresh...and now i owe him one visit...hhmmm...that mean i need to do some saving first...queensland is far and to be able to be in that land...i need to book a flight...anyone, want to sponsor me...EFPOS accepted...no credit card please...anyway, enough fooling around...school start in one week time...ta.

p/s:queensland...but there is no queen living there accept a bunch of youngster make fool of themself in a place called "Big Brother"...sad to see them behave like that every night...but still, the Australian teenager's love to watch it...

It was bliss to have a raining day...

2005-06-23T13:31:00.000+10:00

last tuesday (21st June 2005)we, i mean the Hobartian's experience bad and heavy rain non-stop from morning till the next morning. this picture was taken on the 13th floor of DIMIA office in Collin Street, Hobart. You can't see the Derwent River due to thick fog and you can see how wet the ground during the day...and on the same day, i lost my wallet...but thanks to the lady/girl who found it...she return it to the uni center the next day and they rang me (the uni center)...thanks to Allah and to the person who found it...there is no way i can describe my gratitude towards your action...ta.

p/s:me thinking of how wonderful life can be if we learn how to accept everything that happen to us, there is a reason behind it...

which one come first...

2005-06-14T00:50:00.000+10:00

Which one come first:

a) Family members/Relatives
b) Girlfriend/Boyfriend
c) Friends
d) Society
e) Religious
f) Yourself

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p/s: wonder, what sort of answer will i get...uniqueness is one...but it is not a constant...it's a variable that change with respect to the time interval...and space...

letter by "A very frightened Malaysian abroad"...

2005-06-07T16:07:00.000+10:00

recently, after reading a blog post from by pick yin...i found myself thinking on why do all this have to do with me...or should I rephrase it with "do i have anything to do with this issue"...

yesterday, i received an e-mail from a friend with a copy of a letter by this "a very frightened Malaysian abroad" malaysian-concern-writer, the same writer who wrote to pick yin...

it make's me think last night on what is the objective or the purpose of the letter...i haven't talk to my friend who send the letter about this yet, but after reading it...the first question that arise from my conscious brain was "How should I accept this letter"...as a reminder (positive letter) or as a negative letter or should I just stand up and shout "God damn you"...

first part of the letter, the writer did a very good job on praising malaysia, what the government had done to him and how thankful he is for that...and after spending more than ten years abroad and have his knowledge about what's happening in malaysia through reading (by referring to his letter where he keep on repeating "I read that..., I read about..., As I read all this,...")i'm not so sure whether should i take his letter seriously...

undeniable, it is sad to see our malaysia current condition...but i never felt that malaysia is a bad country...and this have nothing to do with my bumiputra status...and until now i feel sad that people keep on holding this issue as a scapegoat reason and claims that this is a fact that we need to accept and live on it...yes, i agree...but what is the benefit of discussing something that will only direct us to an arguement...for what reason must we hold to this issue if we know that it won't bring us any benefit...

i'm a bumi's...but still, i need to struggle and fight to get what i want among my own people...currently, i'm studying abroad and i have to work to find my own pocket money to live on...but do anyone ever want to know about that...no one cares even the non-bumi's...what they know is i'm a bumi's and why should i bother to study abroad...where i should know that i have the privilege to study in malaysian universities due to my status as a bumi's but unlucky enaough, i didn't get it...maybe I'm the blacksheep of the bumi's...so what, deal with it...

fair enaough to me but sad to know that our younger generation is still being feed with all this information which i think it is a negative eventhough it is true...and at the same time, we say we want to improve our malaysia, we want to see our malaysia where the people live harmony and peacefully...

when i first touch tasmania land last year, i thought that i will deal with a different kind of life among locals and malaysian students'...but after meeting with some of them here...the scenario was different...some of them still carried the same mindset...i thought that, malaysian's who came to tasmania to study will have a different mind and look forward to change their perspective about malaysia...

but sad to know, even in tasmania...what the local's being told was, in malaysia the non-bumi's right to enter malaysian universities is being denied due the the "status-quo" thing as what being claimed by the non-bumi's all the time...I've been asked this question repeatedly last year and it is a tough call...on another scenario, when i introduce myself to the locals that I'm from malaysia...the first question that they will asked me was "so, can you speak chinese?" or "are you a chinese?"...sad to describe, but that's the reality...they don't even know that in malaysia, there are indians, malays, sikhs or other races...

people, times change...let us put all the mistake that being done by our ancestor behind and don't even bother to discuss about it if we know that it will never bring us any benefits...we are the younger generations of malaysia...the older generations are leaving us, one by one...don't let the next generation hate us for what we do...no doubt, we can't run from doing mistake...but let the mistake be a different mistake...history is a lesson for us, the future is our next trial...

p/s:sorry for my poor english...but i just feel that...to know about something...one should hear to both parties or from other parties to understand the situation...my words and thought are just one small concern...any mistake that come from me, i should apologies for the inconvenience...anyway, the letter did make me think, who i am and where i belong...

ten to 11p.m...

2005-06-05T22:51:00.000+10:00

life is always full of suprise,
one should not regret his or her life,
one should treasure for what ever they discover.

life is meaningless without our love one,
as "our loves one" is so subjective,
which the discovery will lead us to something.

we never prepared for,
anything in life,
but we know, something could happen to us.

understanding the world,
will never reach an ending,
could possibly lead us to misunderstanding.

p/s:my brain is half-crack and still i need more time to cover everything...

chapter five: potential energy

2005-06-01T12:48:00.000+10:00

Master Sun said:

Managing many

Is the same as
Managing a few;
It is question of
Division.

Fighting with many

Is the same as
Figthing with few;
It is a matter of
Marshaling men
With gongs,
Identifying them
With flags.

With a combination of

Indirect and
Direct,
An army
Can hold off the enemy
Undefeated.

With an understanding of

Weakness and
Strength,
An army
Can strike
Like a milestone
Cast at an egg.

- taken from Sun-Tzu: "The Art of War", translated by JOHN MINFORD

p/s:"With an understanding of weakness and strength, An army can strike like a milestone cast at an egg.".......through my conversation with others and my personal experience (where i know that i still need to learn more), human's look forward to understand their strength rather than their weaknesses...and look forward to understand their enemy weaknesses rather than the strength......

time...

2005-05-27T12:31:00.000+10:00

Surah al-'Asr

Bismillahirahmanirahim,

By time,
Verily, man is in loss,
Except those who believe and do righteous deeds and exhort one another to Truth and exhort one another to patience.

p/s:we live in a time-domain where every seconds counts...."According to Fourier, any arbitrary periodic signal, x(t), is formed by adding up an infinite number of sinusoids with frequencies harmonically related to a fundamental frequency ω0, with proper amplitude and phase. In other words, any periodic signal can be decomposed into an infinite number of sinusoids whose frequencies are integer multiples of the fundamental frequency ω0 of the periodic signal."

wave that never stop...

2005-05-25T21:25:00.000+10:00

i'm trying to find the right rhythm to start my study,
the time is less then 264 hours,
but still i'm wondering through the big wave,
looking for something intresting,
reading news, browsing picture,
as time ticking away,
i realise that,
the faster i run,
the faster the time move away from me,
the pace never stop,
and don't slip,
another day to come,
another chapter to discover,
it will be a never ending story...

p/s:home is where i belong...and home is what i miss most...

out of 3, none of them i like...

2005-05-23T22:14:00.000+10:00

i'm heading home now...i know that i can get the result from the world-wide-web, but i prefer to watch it and see how it goes...so, now i'm heading home to watch "The Apprentice"...wish i can be one of the competitor and compete myself…not to show how good I am…but to gain some experience from it…I don’t even admire Donald Trump…so it is not about Donald Trump…ta

p/s: actually the real thing that happen everyday, without we notice it….we are actually competing with the rest…but no rewards awarded and no one get FIRED!!!

tolerant...

2005-05-14T21:57:00.000+10:00

according to dictionary.com, the meaning of tolerant is:-

tol·er·ate ( P ) Pronunciation Key (tl-rt)

tr.v. tol·er·at·ed, tol·er·at·ing, tol·er·ates

1. To allow without prohibiting or opposing; permit.
2. To recognize and respect (the rights, beliefs, or practices of others).
3. To put up with; endure. See Synonyms at bear1.
4. Medicine. To have tolerance for (a substance or pathogen).

therefore, here is my focus or the reason why i'm intrested with this word, it is because i feel that nowadays people do lack of it...it may sound so simple and it doesn't required us to spend half of our energy to pronounce it correctly, but in order to make it happen or to show that we do carry this character...does need some effort...say that, from the eyeview of a human being...we been thought to have this character since we were young...it start from the family instituition where in a family, as a brother or sister...we were ask to tolerate to our younger or elder siblings...eventhough at that time of age...we do not know the meaning of tolerate but we just practiced it...but as our age keep on adding up...we disregard it and try to ignore it...

i'm just a normal person where sometimes, human behavior (other's) do interest me in the way to improve myself...someone did told me that "in order to learn about life, one should learn from other human being mistake, as we shouldn't repeat the same mistake as what other's had done...to improve ourself, we need to make our one mistake...correct it and avoid doing it again...if we keep on repeating other human being mistake, we'll get stuck with the rest"...

i'm not so sure whether what i write here does make sense to other's...i don't study about human behavior but sometime's i realise that...to finish a day where we spent less than 24 hours, actually we learn a lot from our surrounding and our environment, minus school and studies...i've said this before "life sometime teach us how to appreciate what we have...but sometimes we regret with what we already have...but the cycle of life continue as usual...life and experience is a good teacher that never lie to the student...no matter how hard the student try to cheat them"...and still, i can't deny it...ta.

p/s:launceston, i'm coming tomorrow...

like an egg at the edge of bull horn...

2005-05-13T00:19:00.000+10:00

this is the normal symptom of me when the final exam is just about to start...i'll start to make use this blog space as a place for me to write something instead of going out and get socialize...at this time around, my best mate is cup of coffee and to make it special, i'll try to get custom made coffee from certain coffee shop where instead of just getting a normal cup of coffee, i'll ask for add-on-flavour-coffee...i've been experimenting with two flavour at the moment...this is the result:-

1. latte + butterscotch =

sweet and not suitable for long term effect

2. latte + hazelnut =

to nice to drink it while studying, suitable while relaxing.

3. vienna =

strong and really appreciate it when i really think that time is the most precious thing.

4.mocha =

suitable for breakfast

anyway, this past few days i've been thinking much about my current life...i'm sure that at this stage, i've steer my direction of life towards positive and succesful ending...but at certain time, the surrounding and atmosphere really kill my motivation...some did say this to me..."you got to find the right atmosphere or you can create one...put yourself as an ice cube...if you are in the correct atmosphere, you'll be able to maintain your shape and be strong...but if you put yourself in a wrong atmosphere, you'll melt and turn into liquid and be gone once you vapourate"...

may Allah guide me to the right direction as i think, me myself can't actually steer my life correctly but i'm confident with what i'm doing now...

p/s:to people who know me, i wish the best for all of you and hope that every day that you went through will bring good memoir and experience...

being out-numbered...

2005-05-12T02:46:00.000+10:00

currently, i'm surrounded by 7 law student,
i'm not sure what make me choose to be here,
but i don't regret it,
get coffee and few pizza slice,
still happy to be here at 3.30 a.m.,
eventhough i know that i need to be on bed now,
but i feel like i want to do some reading,
and finish my assignments...

had a good conversation in the evening,
a friend thought should we not disregard it,
a good sentences that i look forward to understand,
feel happy to know that,
you alone can never be perfect...

this is what i have discover today,
"a society is then like a chain,
where the chain is as strong as,
it's weakest link and,
the weakest link is the,
worst-off person in the society"...

p/s:when you have the capability of erasing the memory in your brain,what would you do?

visit to sydney...

2005-04-12T09:59:00.000+10:00

Hi people...how zit goin mate? Me, not to bad...a bit hectic...as usual, assignments and lab reports are piling up due to my slow motion action...anyway, will finish up soon...anyway, just came back from sydney on sunday...was a good trip and i really appreciate it...why???

All right, the reason why i flew to Sydney was, as a Malaysians student representative from Tasmania to meet up with our Prime Minister, Dato' Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi who did came to Australia do meet with Australia Government and John Howard himself. But before he left Australia, he actually spends his time to meet up with Malaysian Students' as well. On friday night, there was a dinner held by MSD where the attendance on that night is 700+ students' from all around Australia. And I’m proud to be one of the participants. I mean back in Malaysia, I would not have that chance, but here I did get the chance to meet him personally and other Malaysians student from other state in Australia as well. Seriously, it was a good trip. Anyway, I’m out of word to write or maybe I have to many thing to write down but don’t know where to start. That’s my common problem. It always happens that, before I put my finger on the keyboard, I know what I want to write. But once I touch the keypad, it all gone.

Nah, maybe I will write again once I got the idea…anyway, got to run now as my assignment is waiting for me to finish them up. To all my family members especially mom, relatives and friends (you know who you are, rite…miss you guys and my regard goes to every one of you…take care and have a nice and pleasant day…ta.

p/s: my homesick syndrome keep on torturing me at the moment…

hudsons coffee...

2005-04-02T15:06:00.000+10:00

currently i'm inside Hudsons coffee...great place for relaxing...some people say that if you can't find me or you can't contact me, just visit Hudsons and most probably you will see me here...life is to busy lately...anyway, tomorrow i'm having a hockey game with Uni Club...it is going to be my first appearance in Hobart and Internationaly...used to played for one club back in Malaysia, but now i'm playing for Uni Club...it's going to be interesting and i'm suprise to find out that i'm the only Asian player in the team...hopefully i will be able to play for the whole season...anyway, short news from me...will write again soon...ta.

p/s:being sarcastic is alright, but you got to know the limit and every single person in this world have a different limit of accepting it...so PLEASE be aware of that, or else people will not talk to you again and it is not their fault buddy...sorry to say this but some friend are so annoying when it come to this issue...

on holiday...

2005-03-27T09:55:00.000+10:00

hi people...currently i'm in Launceston...second largest town in Tasmania after Hobart...it's a nice place...but can't stay here long...i got to work tomorrow...so, i'm heading back to Hobart in the noon...wish i can stay here longer...i'll try to make another visit later and make sure it will be a long visit...last night, meet a couple of malay student's and had dinner with them...it was good...thanks to my friend, Hanafi (President for Malaysian Student's Association (MSA) and currently 4th year Architecture or "Archie" Student) for the food and hospitality...he cook dinner for all of us...my credit goes to him for the delicious fried mee...anyway, short news from me...will scratch again soon...have a good holiday to all Tassie and have a good day to all people that i know out there...ta.

p/s:the warm welcome and hospitality will bond me to this place, Launceston...

8 hours day...

2005-03-14T12:17:00.000+11:00

currently, we are "celebrating" 8 Hours Day in Tassie, where it is our public holiday instead of celebrating the traditional "Labour Day"...i'm not so sure why and i'm not intrested in knowing it...but i'm glad today is public holiday...actually i'm suppose to cover up some-200-pages-of-reading for my up coming quize this friday, but feel so lazy to do it...currently, i'm sitting in front of the computer in my school building (the only place where i can access fast internet without having to pay for it)...the holiday is spoiling me...and 5 minutes ago, my friend sms-ing me and ask whether me and Zeven would like to join them at the beach...hhmmm....maybe i should go...just to get some refresment before i start my reading again tonight...anyway guys, have fun...ta.

p/s:reading is not my forte...but i got no choice....

new outlook...

2005-03-03T13:28:00.000+11:00

hello people...thinking of changing the layout...a bit plain but i'll try to make it more intresting...anyway...i'm off to work in less than 10 minutes...ta.

p/s:hhmmm...why i'm doing this???

long pause...

2005-03-01T11:30:00.000+11:00

hi people...how a'ya???me, so far so good...the uni start last week...the introduction was good...as usual, our O'week is full with drinks and bbq...nothing else...so much different from back home...i feel glad that uni has started...can't hide my feeling anymore on how bored i am during the holidays...man, what a relief eventhough i know that from this week onward, i need to make sure that i do read my books...anyway, sorry to few friends who tried to contact me through email and didn't get any reply...i know how frustrated you are but there is nothing i can do...nowadays, i dont have the internet anymore from my house like what i used to have last year...now i need to walk to uni if i want to get "connected"...hhmmm....i think there will be no more MSN Messenger for the time being...what a good excuse to myself so i can sit down and do my homework...hahaha...anyway, this year i'm dealing with few tough subject and one of them is Signal and Linear System...one of the toughest subject beside Electromagnetism...i'm sure you know it Mr. Koo...anyway, can't scrath long...need to run and get something done...to all my freind's and my love one...take a good care and enjoy the life wisely...ta.

p/s:i'm into something lately and comletely busy...deeply sorry to everyone if i hurt or make you guy's feel uncomfortable...one thing about my brain at the moment...COMPLETE MASS...

Happy C.N.Y....

2005-02-08T01:18:00.000+11:00

hi people...whats up?me nothing much happening (hmm, sound so boring right)...nah, busy transfering all my stuff to my new house...and i'm currently experiencing muscle ache...thats what happen when you stop from playing sports...after 12 months i didnt touch hockey stick, yerterday i went for 2 games...and this is the result...muscle ache and due to that i cant walk properly...anyway, want to grab this chance to wish Happy Chinese New Year to all my friend who will celebrate it this coming Wednesday (9th Feb 2003)...may this year bring prosperity and good health...thats all for now folks...ta.

p/s:can i get some "red packet" as well...really need it now...hahaha...

my friends...

2005-01-29T04:20:00.000+11:00

i manage to get to lat blogpage and see apai wedding picture...hhmmmm...lat, i didn't know that you have blogpage...

p/s:just type your name in google search panel...and you will find about yourself where you actually don't know about it...